can you see me from the inside?
On the outside my hair is gone
and my head is bald
on the inside I have the memories
of sitting in the chair watching the IV drip
On the outside my breasts are scarred
and the wounds are fresh
on the inside my cancer has been removed
by the surgeon’s delicate hands
On the outside my fingernails and toenails
are falling off and painful
on the inside my cells are dying at
the expense of killing the cancer
on the outside my face has a smile
and I am happy and confident
on the inside I am thinking about
my survival rate and my bucket list
when you look at me, you see
bags under my eyes
and new wrinkles are starting to appear
but my spirit is eternal
and my soul is immortal
My heart is full of love
that the cancer cannot touch
Will I still be here to watch my husband
walk my daughter down the isle?
Will I watch my son grown into a man?
Will I be able to hold my newborn grandchild?
This journey has changed my life forever
I will never be the same person
I will cherish every sunrise
I will tell my family and friends
I love them
and how much thy mean to me
I will hug a little longer
laugh a little harder
and try to make a difference
in the world around me
and the people that surround me
and spend more time
with my Maker
and the Creator of Life
with my family and friends
and I won’t look back at yesterday
because today is all I have
1 Samuel 16:7 "God does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart."
This is awesome. Did you write it ? I really, really like this. love N BigHugzz…
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ryn: Well, the only one I can think of Tracy Lynn. Oh well, forgive my saying this, but, she is not ummm, well, no, I can’t say it. But, I am learning now, that we are to love the sinner and hate the sin. WE are not anyone’s judge, and well, yeah. Hey, this poem is SO good, it’s excellent. There is a poetry contest going on. We have up til Aug. 15th, or so, to submit it to the poetry circle. It’son the OD Master’s diary. I honestly and truly think you should submit it. It is supposed to have something to do with relationship, but, I fully think this does, in more ways than one. BigHugz. Love you!!!
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Beautiful thoughts from a beautiful person, inside and out. I’m very proud of you. You are so brave and such a good person. Healing hugs to you.
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The inside is the only part that matters… ((Hugs)) to you my friend, you’ll beat this.
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(((hugs)))
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AMEN!! Hugs my friend.
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I like!
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Susan, you are on my heart, so, I’ve been praying for you. I miss you a lot. Wilma’s husband Tim died yesterday. It’s so sad. Well, I love you and send you big hugz!!!!!! ;*)) Hope you can jot me a few lines, if you feel up to it? love ya’!!!!!
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This was so touching to read. I hope you are doing good.
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Hi. I’ve been thinking about you. I hope everything is going okay.
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HEY! I’ve been absolutely terrible at keeping up with OpenDiary the past… oh… 10mo. I’ve been thinking about you and praying for you though. I’m going to try to catch up a little if I can. *HUGS*
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You have been in my thoughts and on my mind. Praying that you’re well and a simply too busy recovering to write.
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Thinking of you and praying for you.
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I pray your Christmas Season was warm, wonderful, and disease free and may the New Year be the best until the next!!
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Hope you start writing and sharing here again. I miss you a lot. I am glad you are on Facebook, but, this place is more like “home.” :*)) Please have a Healthy, Happy New Year and MANY more!!!!!! p.s. I did not know about the finger & toenails. I am not going to tell Severn about that. Hanging on to God is the best idea!! BigHugz.
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hope u read this,wow the cancer gone! it will take time to heal but u will shine!! + + + Prayers to you~~ (((hugs))) Denise…P.S. I am on facebook!
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hope u read this,wow the cancer gone! it will take time to heal but u will shine!! + + + Prayers to you~~ (((hugs))) Denise…P.S. I am on facebook!
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