I AM BACK AGAIN..

Hello to everyone, I havent been on here in a very long time. Alot has changed and alot I have done. First off I havent worked since May of this year.  I got on disability due to harrasment from work, they treated me so bad that now I am taking some deppresent pills and it has affected me so much.  I have lost my mind completly, I cant get controlled of myself. I am sick and tired of people telling me its all in your head and I cant control what I am feeling.  How is it all in my head and I cant control it?  I am on Prozac, Zoloft, Abilify and last one welbutrin.  I am going to get back on this diary to see if I feel any better. Everything annoys me, the worst part is that I gained so much weight.

In other news my kids are getting bigger, my daughters are now 13 and 12 and my son is now 6. Time sure does fly and I feel I havent accomplished anything in this life.  I have been suicidal and its gotten to the point that I have poked my face with needles.

I feel like my life will never be the same and I will never be happy as I was sometime ago…………………