Emotionally a Wreck

All weekend I was so emotionally, heck since Friday.  I am just hurt and bothered mostly by J, I cant stand him one bit.  Dont get me wrong I love him and miss him when we arent together but I am just tired of him having no feelings.  He blames everything on me and that I pushed him alot of times that now he doesnt even try to be romantic. I think he just doesnt want to and well last night I finally told him that this is how I am going to be, I’m not going to make conversation to him anymore, heck I’m not going to even bother to talk to him or call him from work.  Its over, I hate everything now, I’m not going to try any more.  Yesterday I didnt go to church, well that was one of the reasons why I didnt go I was pissed off at J and because David was sick all weekend.  He has croup (sp) I took him to Kaiser on Saturday and afterwards we went to chuckie-cheese, the girls had fun.  But David was really moody there of course he was sick but I just wanted him to have a little fun.  J didnt go he was at church all day.

Last night finally he came around to saying what can he do to be a better husband, well I told him nothing now everytime he asks me that its only cause he wants sex and I give him the changes I want him to make and he’ll do it the first day then he’ll forget about it the following day.

You know men totally suck!  I’m just such an emotional wreck right now, and to top it off I started my period today.  Yeah I know TMI but who cares right now I dont care I’m just so out of it.  Honestly I didnt want to come in to work, one of these days I will call off and go jump a cliff, no j/k I just need to ge away from J.  I love him but he is pushing me to the edge.  No matter how much I try  I am the type that if you cant provide the love and romance I loose interest.  *sigh*

I feel like I’m just………….heck I dont even know for the right word I’m looking for……………..how about just blah!

Have a good day everyone at least do it for me cause I’m just not all together.