Some delay…

So of course the apartment complex wouldn’t let us out a month early. The good part of that is that it gives us a month to get everything out, etc. The bad part of that is I have to come up with rent money on the 1st.

So another fight brewed last night….god I wish we were moved already. The stress is making us both utter messes. Stress tends to make me shut down and not want to do anything. N had a fit last night about how he is going to need help on the farm and I said I wouldn’t do it.

I try to tell him I talk a lot of shit. I don’t always mean it. I will do what has to be done. The only thing I absolutely refuse to do is mow the grass….I am allergic to grass..it makes my eyes itch, it makes my skin itch….I won’t do it. I know he is going to be working and having to drive back and forth but unless his schedule changes, there is no freaking reason he can’t mow the hard. he has only been working 3 sometimes 4 days a week….and a work day for him is only 6.5 hours. Add 3 hours for the trip here and there it is only 9.5. I don’t know about you, but that is pretty much a normal number of hours for most people with their commute but whatever.

I have determined he isn’t handling not being the provider well. He is used to being the one that is the backbone on the money situation. I know he doesn’t think I work hard — which is true a lot of the time lol. But as usual, someone who has never had an office job doesn’t get how tiring it is. I understand it isn’t physical…I understand I sit down all day….but it wears you out. I never bring up that I can work 20 hours a week and make more than he would make working full time at his current rate of pay. I never say he doesn’t bring home enough money….but occasionally it gets on my nerves..yes. It brings back memories of the ex.

I am sure it will all be ok. I know it will….just growing and moving pains.  I need him to go back to working more….we have too much time together lol.