Fate…

Anyone who has followed me has seen rotate through a string of men.  They have come and gone.  I have tried to settle to get the fairy tale in my head….none successfully…..but then I met N….

We left off with N coming to stay with J and myself last Monday…

So it has been almost a week since N moved in…and all I can say is that it is awesome. He hasn’t gotten on my nerves, he hasn’t pissed me off.  There is nothing that I am like…well I guess I can deal with that…..  The worse thing he has is he snores like a freight train…having your nose broken 4 times will do that to you.  I think he is sexy as hell.  He is sweet.  We actually sleep all cuddled up with his arms around me – I don’t do that….I have never been able to sleep like that….but yet it feel totally natural.

So not to sound like a totally cheesy romantic comedy, I swear he is the one I have been waiting for.  I always make fun of people and their idea of soulmates but I swear i almost feel like I met one.  All those people who said don’t settle, wait for the right one may have been right.

I am not nervous around him.  I don’t worry about what I say.  I am not trying to make sure I say the right thing.  It just feels natural.  It feels like we have known each other forever.  I haven’t felt like this in forever.  R52 gave me the excited butterflies but we never really talked…we never knew each other – it was just physical.  N makes me not think of anyone but him.  I have pretty much cut out texting all of my flirt buddies.

I am happy.  I am.   Been a long time since I could say that.  I don’t feel like he is playing me.  I haven’t caught him in any lies….not even suspected him of any.  I have a pretty good lie detector…I choose to ignore it sometimes…but it is there.  I don’t know what to do with myself….it is all a bit unreal….but for now, I am just going with it….living the dream lol

***apologies to one of my flirt buddies who reads this….I still love ya but gotta move towards my future.