lazy day,not martha stewart,thank god 4 layaways

 Today is my day off. I woke up at 6 in the morning and couldn’t go to sleep so I read the book until I fell asleep. I slept until late and was startled to discover that is wasnt until 11 when I woke up I dried clothes still feeling exhausted. I had 2 different friends ask me to hang out and I decided that today is my lazy do.I told them no thank you. One girl argued with me angry spating on facebook how all women are drama. I just ignored her childish comments. My friend Amanda wanted me to take pictures but I just want to rest. For over 2 weeks in a row I was with her almost every day off I was with Amanda. I decided today is my day off from hanging out with my friend so that I can have a nice rest. My nice rest involves watching tv playing online. I did go to the story to buy dad some bread and other items but besides that I have been enjoying myself sitting around doing absolutely nothing!

 I do intend to do a few things later on today but well I’ll do that later. I am just tired. I have several dreams just not enough income to accomplish my goals. I might just start doing secret shopping for a small paycheck to pay my college loans. I got a Sophia bedset put in layaway.I had to put throw pillows,regular pillows and some satin pillow cases. I put some pyrex dishes in layaway and I hope I can eventualy take these items out of layaway. If and when I have enough money to afford so. After I take these items out of layaway I believe I am going to try to put some more furniture in layaway. All the nice things I have got since I started working at kmart came directly from layaway. I dont believe in using credit cards and I am trying not to create more debt. God knows I will struggle enough with my loan!

 I have been trying to tidy up my house but the more I try the more I feel like I am failing. Its such a small house it shouldn’t be such a hard problem I think a lot of it has to do with my psychological perspective. I just feel overwhelmed and sad at time because I want my house to be like the ones in the magazines and well that isnt just happening. I just need to accept I am not martha stewart and accept I cant have the nice things in life. I am poor I just need to accept that. I am going to try to get nice things here and there but I need to make sure I can pay my bills first! I have very few guests not only because I am ashamed for the condition in my house but I’d rather have my house to myself. Very few of my friends have ever even seen the inside of my house. I hope to keep it that way. I am a tad bit antisocial. I get enough social interaction when I am at work! If I want to see people I meet them outside my home. Strange I know but I like my home being private!

 My addiction is pinterest. I go on there and collect cooking tutorials,building furniture,sewing tutorials etc. I found some really good decorating advice for my small house and I believe when I have the funds I am going to try it until than I am going to dream!NIGHT!