negative energies turned into positive actions

During a break up I either do one or two things. Either I can sit and watch the world burn (raise hell) or I can let go and use those energies for something constructive like change the world. I chose the second one. After Mike broke up with me I simply deleted his number. I decided the karma for his actions would come to him with time. I haven’t talked to him since. I believe I might first change with improving my own life I than might go around and help others in a personal campaign. I don’t desire anything but a selfless satisfaction. The gratification of knowing I helped another without getting anything in return. I desire to do community service a bit at a time when I have the energy. I often help with my friends by running their errands and helping their kids but this time I might show kindness to stranger just to see how karma rewards me for my actions. I know it sounds odd but I am a big believer in only good things can come from kindness.

Some of my first activities are going to be directed towards me for things I have been desiring to do. I have intentions of cleaning out my car. Donating clothes I no longer use to needy friends and charity and donating my unused items to charity. I intend to take on the challenge of the messy house I am ashamed of and try to see if I can improve my life a room at a time. I have always been ashamed of my living conditions due to my living alone its my own fault and I intend to try to raise above who I used to be.

I want to try to get a third job. My first one is Kmart and my second one is a secret shopper. I want so much to pay off my college loan. I have $1000 left of my boy scout money where I worked for them. I am going to quickly pay part of the loan and I am going to try to find odd jobs and part time positions around my Kmart job. I don’t feel very successful right now in my life and of course I desire more.

If I have to be alone with a broken heart I my as well do positive things to heal. Any advice how I can raise above the negatives I used to be? I am thinking of doing a personal biog just to remind myself how much I have changed. Do you view this foolish? Is it a good idea?