Sunday

Hello gentle hearts

Today is another Sunday.

I have been sitting on my laurels in front of my Pc for 2 hours! Ouch!

None-the-less I found out what the name Alex means:

Protector of Mankind!

My name Mary means: “Mistress of the Sea” 😀

Yesterday I went to my best friend’s son’s First Communion at St. John the Baptist Church. It was lovely.

All the children looked so cute! I fell in love with the boys. I said a prayer to God that he send Alexander to me soon. I imagined us at the alter getting married.

Tears fell down my eyes…like always!

Marriage is so very important to me! I’ve always dreamed of walking down the aisle so many times since I was a little girl. I just can’t see me doing it. 🙁

I some how feel I am not worthy of such an honor. 🙁

I guess it is because I feel tainted somehow.

I know I am not tainted for I’ve never had sex with anyone before…I only had a very bad exprience once when I was a child but Thank God I am still a virgin.

Thank God! That is why I feel ‘tainted’.

🙁

Yet I know God has destined for me to marry sometime in my near future.

I just feel it deep within my heart that the day is near.

Anyhow, the Communion turned out nice and we had brunch at this Italian restaurant nearby. I had a feast!

I ordered the chicken linguine. We had strawberry short-cake and cappuccino for desert.

My friend, Eleine kissed me and wished me luck with Alex.

She said she prays every night for me and that she wishes to be my maid of honor! 😀

God! Please! Please! Send me Alex soon! Please bless this relationship and make it real!

SensualRose @}>->->->->-