Theme of the Week: Part2

I met my first Net accuaintance at the library!

He is someone from close by. He decided to drop in and see the person he talked to for 4 months on-line. He came up to me and asked me if I had a poetry book on Robert Frost. He didn’t have the nerve to say who he was, but I had the feeling who he was by the way he kept staring at me.

Luckily I do keep a safe distance. I can be friendly, loveable and such, but at the same time I can be politely assertive when I have to. When he was going into the staff room I turned to him and said, “I am sorry, but you can’t come in here!” then I smiled politely. Later that night he revealed to me that he came to visit me and asked for Frost. I appologized to him for being quite rude. He just said that I was protecting my rights and that I wasn’t rude at all.

I met my soulmate on the InterNet!

I now can attest to the fact that destiny does very well exist. On September 19th, 1999, this very sweet man named Alex found his way to my poetry club and added me to his Yahoo Messenger as a friend. We spoke briefly that first day and we started bonding immediately. At first I thought he was rather so annoyingly polite….saying “Hi Mary Love…How are you?”

I talked to my friend Heather about this and also told her I found him charming. I learned he was a pisces like myself and was born 9 days apart from me, but at a different year. I am 7 years older than he is.

The first week into our friendship he gave me his address! I thought it was very thrilling indeed to start a long-distance friendship. I sent him a postcard. Seven days later he sent me an e-mail thanking me and re-thanking me for the post-card. He is British and the British people are so polite. I like that!

The British are not like most fellow New Yorkers who give one another the ‘bird’ or rudely greet each other with a sneer. Tee,hee! No offense!

Alex sent me a set of postcard from Oxfordshire, England and a letter (Thanking me again for our friendship). Tee,hee! After that I sent him the Ricky Martin CD…”She’s All I Ever Had”. We both love music (The same type of music to be exact). In the Course of 5 months we became close friends. We told each other about everything including our love life. We both had some rather painful love experiences and we both value love very much. We are basically the same! I asked him if we were twins. He said it seems that way. Alex and I both love astrology, movies, music, theater, poetry and just relaxing. He does love to walk, which is so romantic!

We kept e-mailing each other and sending each other presents through the mail. Over time I began to fall in love with him and he with me. Since I was hurt so badly by this boy in 5th grade over the fact that I made it known that I loved him, he crushed me so much when he came up to me and publically humiliated me in front of the entire class, I haven’t been able to express my love and admiration to any man. I’ve been through life with crushes on certain men, but not expressing my feelings to them for fear of offending them. 🙁 (sigh)

It happened to me a year prior to meeting Alex. Sammy came to me from my other Yahoo Club and I fell so in love with him. I wrote him poems, sent him e-cards, and even called him 3 times at his home in South Carolina…but he never loved me back 🙁

I was so hurt! He finally found himself a dispicable lady and when he got engaged to her (another on-line affair), he told me to drop him off his friends’ list.

I was so crushed again. I was now falling for Alexander.

How my heart hurt when we talked and I just couldn’t express my desire for him. Surprisingly he point-blankly told me two days before I expressed my true feelings for him “Gush, Mary…is it wrong to love you so?” I was so surprised! Then he said, “I will love, you, Mary till I am blue in the face!” “No, hon….it isn’t wrong!” I said.

He was hurting so from his past experiences as well as I.

He was talking to me about this penpal of his which expressed her affections towards him and he wanted my opinion of the situation. My heart sank. I told him to follow his heart. If he felt butterflies in his stomache then he should tell her of his feelings for her. (sigh), How could I tell him I wanted to love him so? I was going to be crushed again. I was going to lose my chance again to find a good man to love. On December 28th, 1999 I decided to e-mail Alex and tell him about my true feelings of love for him. I hesitated to at first, debating with myself if I should. Roy, this friend of mine from Kansas told me once that men need a hammer in their heads so they can understand what’s in a woman’s heart. I just couldn’t do it with Sam.

I took a deep breath and wrote Alex an e-mail expressing to him my deepest sentiments. Basically I told him that I loved him much more than a friend. I told him I loved him romantically. I told him that I did not care if he didn’t feel the same way about me, but I must tell him how I felt about him. Crying, I said “Goodbye, Alex” certain that he would ever so politely reject me too.

To my surprise he reciprocated my love tenfold the next day! I was so overjoyed! He said he loved me as equally if not more!

Our love grew stronger for one another in the coming weeks! Christmas 1999 was my best Christmas Ever!

SensualRose @}>->->->-