Weekend Cometh

Hello Dear Heart,

My day began at 7AM. I overslept and got up finally at 8:02AM. Work dragged on and on!

Today the library held a Trivia Question Contest in honor of National Library Week.

A group of students came to answer several trivia questions. All participants received auto mugs and pens.

The winner who answered most questions correctly received a computerized calculator.

I worked at the adult deparment today most of the day.

I had to deal with two drunk people. They were quite funny, really, but I had to listen to their ‘shit’.

I couldn’t wait to get home. I am exhausted!

I spent 2 hours on the Net uploading some files from my disk drive to my account at http://www.xdrive.com.

It is a neat website! you can upload, download, and share all your files….thus allowing more space on your disk drive once you upload to this free on-line website. It is like having a free warehouse for your files. You can even upload Mp3’s.

Well, Axle Bear sent me an e-mail yesterday! He told me that he posted my Easter gift. Hurray!

I missed him today. I am more mature now! At least i am not over-reacting a lot. I am learning to deal with my impatience on my own. 🙁

It is difficult, though! I still feel a bit sad at times.

I will live though! It is so damn uncomfortable! I just keep sighing and swollowing a great deal.

It is just uncomfortable. I feel so bored! I feel like my life is so boring! What have I accomplished in 37 years? Let’s see….I’ve graduated from high school.

I have graduated from business school. I have had a good job for nearly 16 years and still at it. I have gone on-line and have met so many wonderful Net friends from all walks of life. What am I missing? I feel so pathetic at times! Oh, I am just being hard on myself, I guess. I have even met my soulmate!!!

I just hope this love of mine will grow and that I be patient and let love wrap its arms around me…engulfing me in a beautiful wave of love and joy. My life has been composed of pain, joy, happiness…and grief..I guess that’s what makes life an adventure…all the little different things it is composed of. I don’t know…I just feel that I’ve spent half my life regretting what I should have done. I feel my life is stagnating. I really need to stop thinking and let love come to me and let it seap right through my soul, working its’ miracle on me.

I need patience! I need to be patient so very much.

How do you learn to be patient when half of your life is wasted and you are looking downhill in exhasperation, clinging on to a past full of pain, lament, and the choking weeds of “What if’s”?

I’ve downloaded “A Mid Summer’s Dream” to my E-Rocket Book. I am going to take a hot shower now and eat my pizza I ordered the family. I shall return later.

Sensual Rose @}>->->->->-