No Particular Direction

I dont really have a whole lot to say right now, but I feel like I should update. I spent the weekend with Boyfriend, but we didnt have the talk. I was too intimidated to initiate it. We were lovey-dovey all weekend and everything seemed great so I just asked So are we staying together? He said yes, that he would miss me too much to be away from me. I am not sure how I feel about this situation. There isnt a whole lot left that I have to say about it, though, so I think Ill let it drop for now.

Over the weekend I got a book called Millionaire Women Next Door (or something to that effect). There were a few things that the author touched on that struck a chord with me. They were not new ideas. In fact, I had practiced these myself, but I havent trained myself to make them a habit. The first thing the author noted was that these women tended to shop with a detailed grocery list. That is something I still do. I figure out what recipes Ill be making and buy whatever ingredients I dont have. The second habit he touched on was making daily, weekly, monthly, annual and lifetime to-dos. I have done this before, but never really put a whole lot of effort into it. When you dont know what you want its hard to make a list of ways to go after it! Over the last few years I have grown a lot and I now have several clear lifetime goals that I would like to achieve (i.e., reach an ideal body weight, speak fluent Spanish, French AND Italian, etc.). Now that I have decided on these goals I can break them down into smaller, more manageable tasks. Im strangely excited about this process. It feels like things are starting to come together.

I enrolled in the local community college for fall semesterjust another way Im attempting to improve my life. Im still completely interested in the prospect of being a stay-at-home mom, but I dont want to be dependant on my husband. As it is, Boyfriend is going through some work drama and has taken a huge pay cut. What if we were married and expecting a baby when that happened? I want to know that I can actively contribute to the well-being of my family, and having a degree is an important aspect of allowing me to reach beyond jobs at the local retailer. Plus, Id like to become published. There is no reason I cannot write while being a stay-at-home mom. My writing skills arent even close to being up to par, which is just one more reason I feel I need to be in school.

Overall, things are looking up. Things still look dim around me, but I see a light ahead (yes, Im fully aware that that last line was PURE velveeta). Hmm, for not having a lot to say I sure wrote a long entry!

Galadriel

June 7, 2004

wow, how fun and alike we are! lol i don’t know if you know this, but i’m going to school right now to study writing and hopefully end in being a published author. and i figured that that was a career i could maintain while being at home with the kids. and i’m minoring in Spanish because i would like to become fluent and teach it to my kids. what fun! ryn: yes, $750 for an entire house.

(cont.) that’s 3 bedrooms, a living room, dining room, and kitchen, and 1 and a half bathrooms, and a basement. It comes out to 250 a person, plus we pay all utilities, so it’ll be around 300 for each of us. I live in Indiana, at Purdue University. 🙂

As long as things are looking up….that matters alot

Mommy To A Princess

Hi Hun, I’m glad things are working out for you. I hope they continue to. I am heading out that way tonight instead of tomorrow, cause of everything going on. I know there will be lots of traffic. Anyhow, I hope you have a wonderful day! Take Care and God Bless, Angela

what made u think i was a vegitarian? sin,

i noticed i spelled vegetarian wrong…i think i’m having a brain blackout…lol…it may still be wrong here…who knows dammit. sin,

hey, thanks for the note 🙂 It took me about a year to get down to 143 and then I took a break for about a year and then started again recently… In the span of about 35 days I’ve lost 8.5 lbs. Good job on making life changes and going back to school. What are you studying? Take care and I hope things goe well. Bye!

ryn:yes but shhhhhh don’t tell its a secret:O;)

PenguinsWalkAmoungUs

I, too, have several lifetime goals. I would like to take over the world. Alas, this is impossible at this time, as I am an outlaw in Peru. Sigh… That is all ye know and all ye need to know.

Aw, well that was very sweet of you to think of me 🙂 that makes me happy 🙂 nah, not overly good with the phone… but i guess it depends on the situation. sometimes i’m quiet and sometimes hyper talkative. Maybe we will talk one day… 🙂 it would be nice. Not sure how though- long distance charges bad 🙂 i just hope i wont bore you on that day. well, take care Em!

Oh and I’m glad you see a light… just dont go toward it! no! not toward the light! not yet! 🙂 But anywho, I’m glad you have goals in life and all. Stick with them, and i know you can do them, all of them. Look, you’re already thinking like a next-door millionaire 🙂 Just be the proton (be positive). Good luck with those goals and Boyfriend, ok? Take care!

Look What I Can Do

Hey! I saw your note about birth control on SilkenLuck’s diary and thought I’d share what I know 🙂 Basically any hormonal birth control has the potential to make a person gain OR lose weight depending on how their body responds to it, including the patch. I started last month on the pill and didn’t gain weight (thankfully!), but went back up to a DD 😛 Side effects vary greatly.

Sorry there was no talk but atleast you two are staying together. I made it home same. I love you and already miss you.

hey there thanx for the note. yea maybe they are jelous of my discipline, that or they just think im wierd but oh well.

AzWeThinkWeIz

June 8, 2004

It’s great that you want to look beyond the role of a stay at home mom and enrolled at school. If writing is your passion, then a degree can definitely help you do what you want to do! =)

joshlt

go for that light! and thanx for that hug :^) *hugz u back* have a goodday Josh

RYN: yea i guess shes broken my trust on that occasion then……. i was just thinking of her breaking my trust like her being with another guy and making out… something like that…. but your right, on that one she has broken my trust…. yep, no show thursday then i forgeeta bout it! have a goodday thanx for saying i deserve more cause more sounds just nice :^) Josh

Congrats on going back to school. You know how feel about school!:)

Hey!Thanks for the note!Yes,I’ll be a College grad at 19.It’s called going to a Private College that has really good,hard courses,that are only a year long!It is a 4 year course I am taking,all rolled into one. So basically,it’s good in the sense that I get to start work much earlier than if I were to go to University,but it’s bad in the sense that it was a lot of hard work!

Congrats on deciding to take a course,it will definitely help.Good luck!

forever in motion

June 10, 2004

Dude, I would be very loving when with him and VERY independant when he’s not around. I probably wouldn’t call too often, but just enough to not make it obvious I wasn’t. I don’t want to sound know-it-all, but I’ve been through this stage with guys before. Good chance to work on your own stuff. xxoo,