Glimmer*

It’s been so long since I’ve written.  I’m not even going to bother trying to do an update about what has happened in my life since the last time that I wrote.  The main reason that I’m writing today is because I have to tell SOMEBODY what is going on.  I don’t want to talk to people at work about it, and I don’t really want to say anything to anybody else about it until I know more about what is going to happen.  So in hopes of getting this out of my system and telling SOMEBODY, I figured I’d come here and write for a change.

I’ve finally had it with my job.  Okay… not my job.  I don’t mind my job.  The work is good for the most part.  I love my co-workers.  What I don’t like so much (at all) is dealing with the director of our department.  I can’t stand it anymore.  She drives me frickin’ nuts!  She’s had it out for me for months now, but hasn’t/won’t do anything because 1) she doesn’t have grounds to get rid of me, 2) I’m bring in the best quality scores for the department, and 3) I haven’t done anything wrong.  Yet she loathes me.  She can’t stand people that have a backbone and a mind of their own.  She considers them (me) high maintenance so to speak.  So so would rather have mindless drones working for her so that she can manipulate them and make them do what she wants when she wants.  Funny thing is that those low maintenance people have come back to bight her in the arse.  They’ve dropped the quality scores for the entire department, and in turn added ammo to upper management’s reasoning behind wanting to outsource the entire department.

Needless to say, I’ve had enough.  I started to send my resume out over the last couple of weeks, and I got a hit last week.  I set up the phone interview this morning, and will be speaking with the co-owner and CFO of the company this afternoon on my lunch.  I pray that it goes well.  Getting this job would mean working within 10-15 minutes of home again.  No more 40-60 minute commuting to and from work.  It would mean working Monday through Friday.  It would mean no more crazy peak seasons every 3-4 months.  The question at this point is how much do they pay.  Will there be a period of time where we don’t have insurance?  Is the change from my current job to the new job going to worth it, or am I still better off staying where I’m at regardless of the drama?

While I was actually in the middle of writing this entry, The Director had me come into her office to discuss my yearly review.  Apparently even though she STILL thinks I have a crappy attitude and cause problems (I don’t really know what she is talking about) with department moral, she requested a raise for me.  It is pending approval, and she didn’t say how much it will be if it is approved.  So now I have to take that into consideration.  To be honest, I hope I don’t have to second guess my decision to leave.  I hope that IF this other company would offer me a position, they will make me an offer that is hard if not impossible to refuse.  But with that said, at least if I don’t get this new job or if it doesn’t pay enough, I’ll hopefully be getting a raise.  Watch, the raise will be like $.25.  LMAO

*sigh*  I’ve been praying a lot about this situation.  Asking God to open up a new door for me.  I’m hopeful that this may be the door that I’ve asked for.  A much less stressful door.  I sit and think about all of the things that I would like to say if/when I leave here.  I think I’ll take the high road though and keep it clean.  LOL  Lord knows that I’ve thought about telling them EXACTLY what I think if I were given the opportunity.  But then I think about who I am when I’m not here at work.  I’m for the most part a happy, laid back, enjoyable person to be around.  Not to say I’m not that way at work.  I am a lot less happy than I used to be though.  I guess the main thing is that if I really did say the things that I’ve dreamed of saying, I would only be proving her point so to speak.  I don’t want to leave here with she believing that she was right about me.  Because she’s not!  She has put me in this box and continued to keep me there for months now.  And I’m over it!  I’m not the person that she thinks that I am, and I think the best way to prove that will be if I leave here with my head held high and a positive attitude.  Too bad it will be fake when it comes to her.

15 minutes until the phone interview.  Wish me luck.  =

*Phone interview was great!  Until my phone started to DIE.  DOH!  Luckily the guy that I was talking to was super nice and understanding.  He told me that he wanted to continue talking to me, and we set up the second half of our interview for tomorrow at the same time.  So far so good!  I like their outlook on how they run their business.  They believe in having a balance of work and life which is completely opposite from my current job.  Here, they expect us to adjust our life according to the company which I have not been a fan of since it started to become even more and more prevalent over the past year.  They are only 4 miles from where I live, and their hours are Monday through Friday from 8 to 4:30.  HEAVEN!  I could have a LIFE again and not be given a guilt trip every time I don’t jump for joy when we have mandatory OT during the holiday season.

I’m trying so hard not to get my hopes way up there, and considering the fact that I may be (will likely be) getting a raise at my current job, at least I have that to fall back on if it doesn’t work out.  But oh how I would love love LOVE to give my notice here with a smile.