Mending

I want to sing a song for You, Lord
Lord, for You I want to sing a song
And I want to lift my voice to Heaven
And listen to the angels sing along

I am so glad that today is my last day of work for this week. I can’t wait to walk out of here and not have to be back until Monday. I’m debating if I want to make a last minute decision and take Monday off too. HMMMMM Would be nice to not have to come back for an extra day. I have a little while to think about it. 

It has been exactly two years now since I have been home to see my family. Two years since I have seen my mom. The last time I was home was for Thanksgiving in 2008 and for my mom’s 50th birthday. WOW! First of all, time flies. Second of all, this is the LONGEST that I have ever gone without seeing my family let alone being away from Nebraska. We actually had intended on going back in August for over a week long vacation. Long story really short, plans fell through and there was MASSIVE miscommunication between my family and me, and we didn’t go. There were a lot of hurt feelings (mainly mine), and it took me awhile to even talk to anybody in my family after all was said and done. I’m past it now, and have come to a place of forgiveness. We are planning on going back now in April.

Since we aren’t going to Nebraska until April, that means that the holidays will once again be spent with Jacob’s side of the family. Oh joy. Seth and Shawn moved back to Nebraska this past summer. Again. Seth continued to get caught up in the wrong crowd while they were living out here and it was nothing but drama. Well… guess who is back? Seth. He’s here by himself and has left Shawn and the kids back in Nebraska. He left just before Shawn had a hysterectomy too. What a great husband! Come to find out the other day that he supposedly grabbed some woman by the throat, got up in her face, and in his drill sergeant voice told her, "I get what I want!"  WTF?!  When Jacob told me about this the other day, I asked him why the woman didn’t press charges.  Then it dawned on me… oh… maybe THAT is why he’s here again.  We both agree that one of the best things for Seth at this point would be for him to be locked up.  Who the hell does he think he is?  He’s a nutcase, that’s for sure.

So my Thanksgiving holiday will be spent in all our glorious brokeness with the in-laws.  I pray that everyone will be able to keep it together and that there isn’t any major drama over the next few days.  I’m also crossing my fingers that Jacob will have his fill of his family by Saturday so that we can leave early.  We’ll have to see though since I’m hoping that we aren’t going to be leaving tonight and instead will get up bright and early tomorrow morning to drive up there.  We’ll see what the hubby wants to do when I get home.  OH… just remembered I need to plug in my Nook!

Back to that work subject from yesterday… I ended up talking to my supervisor this morning.  The supervisor that I’ve had since I started and who I became friends with over the past year.  We literally had a little cry fest over what has happened over the past few weeks/months and most especially what happened last Friday.  She has been feeling horrible about how things have turned for me, and she felt bad that I canceled my plans to hang out with everyone last weekend.  Seems that all the changes that have happened and the way things have been handled around here have taken their toll on her too.  It was REALLY good to get to talk to her though and to mend fences with her.  We are good and totally on the same page again.  We actually hugged it out, and I know that I at least have an ally in her.

Well, I’m training one of the new people today, so I’m going to finish this up so that I’m not typing this entry when she gets back from lunch.

Happy Thanksgiving!

JamieLynn =)