3/21/08
It is going to be a long day. With the exception of a handful of exams that I need to file and a couple that I need to fax, my work is completed for the day. It’s only 12:00. That means that I have 6 more hours of nothing to do… at least nothing to do that is work related. *sigh* Looks like I’ll be reading the rest of the latest Dark Hunter book and/or browsing mindlessly throughout the internet.
Not much is going on right now. Jacob started a new class last night. Just another thing that I hope he can finish. He is getting his GED. Yeah… he never finished school. Just another thing that I have no respect for his parents for. I don’t understand how you can be so irrisponsible as to just let your kid do whatever he wants and all the drugs he can imagine. It’s complete rubbish!
I think that’s why Jacob is unable to commit to any type of job successfully. The values that it takes to be a normal successful human being were never instilled in him. I’m still wondering why it is so hard for him to keep a job get a job. We live in a huge city. There are thousands of jobs. Yeah he might not qualify for a lot of them due to lack of edjucation, but there has to be SOMETHING out there for him to be able to do. I just don’t get it.
We had to borrow money from Nana to be able to pay our PG&E. Come to find out instead of Nana loaning the money to us, instead Jacob’s mom loaned it to us. Thank you and all to her, but I would have rather have had the money come from Nana. Jacob’s mom tends to hold things over your head anytime she does anything for you.
Comcast is about to get shut off. I have until April 1st to be able to pay the past due amount otherwise the service will be disconnected altogether, and we will have to start up new service from scratch. We are so far behind right now, and it’s all Jacob’s fault. He tells me that he’s looking for jobs. I don’t know if I believe him though. Seriously… how hard can it be? Can you tell that I’m starting to get bitter with him?
Okay… so this went from being an entry where I was in a good mood to an entry where I’m ready to throw in the towel and say screw everything… including being married to a loser. Yeah… I said it… at this point in time, I view my husband as a loser. How sad is that? I’ve tried being supportive. I’ve tried staying positive. I’ve seriously run the gammet with this man. When is it ever going to get better? It can’t stay like this forever! Can it?
After Jacob gets his GED, we talked about him going into the army. I’m pretty back and forth on this subject. At times I think it would be really good for him/us, and at other times I can’t imagine him going into the military and me being without him around all the time. It would give him the opportunity at actually having a career when all is said and done. It would force him to grow up and stay committed to a job whether the people he is working with like him or not. He wouldn’t be able to quit if things weren’t going the way he wanted them to. He wouldn’t be fired (unless he really really fucked up). He could get stationed in some interesting places throughout the country and/or the world, most of which I would be able to move with him.
The cons of him going in to military… I won’t get to see him or talk to him for days/weeks at a time. I’ll miss him horribly of course as much as we push each other’s buttons now. He may end up serving time in Iraq depending on when he joins and if they are still sending troops over. Something horrible could happen to him wherever he gets stationed (but something could happen to either of us at anytime too). I’m sure there are other cons to this scenario, but in all honesty at this point, the pros are outweighting the cons. *sigh* I’m thinking we just need to meet with a recruiter and see what the deal is and what we could expect. This would be a huge decision for us, but possibly one that really needs to be made.
Jacob isn’t the one that is unsure about the military either. He’s pretty much all for it. But before we pack our bags, first things first. He has to get his GED and in the mean time a job, and we’ll go from there.
Okay… new subject… before I forget this is the current book:
I’m hoping we have a good weekend, and of course anyone who has read this… YOU have a good weekend too.
Oh yeah… and last but not least.
Have a Happy Easter!