Make it Work *EDIT*

Did I ever mention how much I absolutely hate hate hate being broke.  Well… I HATE being broke.  It is down right rediculous how broke we are right now.  I’m doing my best not to stress over it, but it’s kind of hard not to when at this very minute we don’t even have enough money to cover rent for the month.  At this point, I’m biting my tongue so hard to not take things out on Jacob.  (Please excuse the negative entry that is about to unfold.)

Why would I take it out on Jacob you may be asking.  Well to start with… he doesn’t have a job.  Again.  I realize that people have their ups and downs when it comes to employment, but seriously… the man can’t keep a job for shit.  I don’t want money to be an issue in our marriage.  God knows that we have enough issues other than finances to deal with.  HOWEVER… for once I would like to know that he has a job that we can rely on.  Something that I’m not going have to worry about lasting because I know that the job will be there.  As much as I love the man, I can’t help but think at times that he is the problem, and not the employers that he works for.  In the last 4 years he has had 10 jobs. TEN!!!  WHO THE FUCK DOES THAT???  And in all honesty, I’m not entirely sure if I’ve counted all of them.  There’s probably a couple that I’m missing.

In the last 4 years, I personally have had 4 jobs.  The job that I had when I met Jacob, a temp job that I had until I started working at STS, then of course STS, and now Portamedic.  I just don’t get it!  And it’s really starting to get to me.

So not only are we broke right now, but we are in debt like no other.  Jacob needs to get his taxes done, which if he gets back the amount that he thinks he will, then we should be able to pay off some things and be comfortable again.  The car has been acting up lately though, so God only knows what is wrong with it and how much it will cost to fix it.  I have to pay for plane tickets to Nebraska next Friday.  There’s no ifs ands or buts about that.  The only thing that could save us money in that trip is if only I go back without him.  As irritated as I am with him right now, I don’t want to leave him behind.

On top of our regular bills, we got a notice the other day that our rent is going up an additional $88 per month starting in June.  If we don’t renew our lease then we will have to also pay an additional $100 on top of that.  I would consider moving it wasn’t for the fact that Jacob’s credit is continuing to get fucked up right now due to the fact that we can’t afford to pay all his credit card bills.  Yeah… he started out by getting one credit card, but then the dumb ass went stir crazy and now has four of the damn things… all maxed out and over their limits.  I told him not to fuck around with credit cards.  Needless to say… he didn’t listen.

Okay… on that note… just because I want to continue to keep track.  These are the books that I’ve either read or that I am reading right now.

I’m out of here.

Laters,
JamieLynn

*EDIT*
Seems that my husband is going to have to pay the IRS instead of getting a refund.  He evidentally thought that he would claim 2 on his W-4s instead of 0 like he should have.