A Lot Has Changed.

 I feel like a different person. A little older, wiser, and more bitter. I knew life would do this eventually. But at 24? Gimme a break. I don’t expect everything to be easy. It would just be nice if things would let up a little. Coral’s moved away with Jason. I haven’t talked about it with anyone. It’s really broken my heart, though. I think, for me, it solidified that we are no longer children. Am i supposed to be moving somewhere dramatic? I moved to Brooklyn. I suppose that’s dramatic. I need a different kind of stability. 

My job has been training me as a barista, instead of having me be a hostess. I’m really crap at it. It doesn’t help that I don’t drink coffee. I have no idea what I’m feeding people. My manager told me to start drinking it. I told him no. I don’t tell him to start eating big macs. I find coffee disgusting. Just like big macs. However, I do enjoy the smell of coffee. I think because it reminds me of my mother and my grandfather. 

Therew’s a lot on my mind. I intended to put it all here. I don’t have the words yet.