With Tear Stains On Her Eyes…

 My Dearest Readers, 

I can’t tell you what’s going on still but I came to rant a little. Tomorrow is going to be one of the most life changing and painful days of my entire life. It’s something that is going to change me forever. I will never get past this completely. 

I’m scared to death, really. I have to go through something extremely major tomorrow and I have to do it all alone. I have never felt so alone in all of my life. I needed someone’s help with this one thing…and they bailed on me. Excuse me for thinking that this was important to you too. I needed to know that this person would be there for me…with me…through all of this and so far I just feel like I’m walking into the dark…alone. 

I foresee a lot of crying in my near future. It’s going to be a long night…and a long weekend. A bitter end for an already long week. Maybe just maybe it’ll go by quick and I’ll still be okay at the end of it…HA!  My anxiety is going to be off the charts tomorrow. I feel just so alone. I just hope that I’m making the best decision… That’s all I really can hope for for now.

I’m going to stop writing now. I really will let you all know what’s going on sometime after tomorrow…probably in a friends only entry. I’m too tired and worn out to tell you right now. Just…Hope I make it through tomorrow without too much pain, okay? Maybe everything will be okay…Maybe maybe maybe. I love you, readers.

~♥EmieLove♥~