30 Days -Stolen From KingProtector- Day 23

 Day 1: Something about yourself.
Day 2: 10 likes and 10 dislikes.
Day 3: The meaning behind your diary name.
Day 4 – Your day, in great detail
Day 5 – Five places you want to visit and why
Day 6 – What band/musician is most important to you?
Day 7 – Do you read? What are your favorite book?
Day 8 – Pet Peeves
Day 9 – If you could live off of one food and beverage for the rest of your days, what would they be?
Day 10 – Post a picture of your desktop
Day 11 – What is your favorite quote?
Day 12 – Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is
Day 13 – Three confessions of your choice
Day 14 – Things you want to say to an ex
Day 15 – A photo of someone you fancy at the moment
Day 16 – If the world were to end tomorrow, what would you do with your remaining time on earth?
Day 17 – What do you want to be when you get older?
Day 18 – Name the tv show(s) you have become addicted to
Day 19 – The best thing to happen to you this week
Day 20 – Your definition of love
Day 21 – What kind of person attracts you?
Day 22 – A picture of what you wore today
Day 23 – A letter to someone. Anyone
Day 24 – Would you rather date someone plain with an amazing personality or someone beautiful with a plain personality?
Day 25 – Seven things that cross your mind a lot
Day 26 – How you hope your future will be like
Day 27 – A picture of your handwriting
Day 28 – Do you wish for anything at 11:11? If so, what do you wish for?
Day 29 – Picture of yourself
Day 30 – Anything you want to post

Before I start this post there are a few things that I would like to say. 

First of all, Does anyone even read my posts anymore? I know about five people who actually know me and would be reading this right now. Maybe no one reads these anymore. Maybe no one cares anymore.

Anyway, I suppose that isn’t the point.

On that note, though, Who does read these, anyway?

You don’t have to tell me. I just wanted to know.

Anyway, on to the 30 days. <br t

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A letter to anyone?

Well, I have a few letters that I would like to write tonight.

None will have names directly in them.

That’s for me to know and for you to maybe find out.

Each color is a different person, just so you know.

If you think it’s about you there is a good chance you are wrong. Here goes:

You are almost 100 percent going to read this. I just wanted you to know that I’ve been thinking about you a whole lot lately. I miss you pretty badly. I wonder if you know that. I wonder if you care. Anyway, I think that we would both be better off if we started talking again. I think that we both need each other now. Just.. Give it some thought, okay? I know I’ve said I need you before but it doesn’t seem to phase you like I need it to. I NEED YOU. I miss you pretty badly aswell. I love you.

Hello, there. It has been a while since I wrote to you. All I wanted to say to you is that I love you. I don’t just mean I love you, I mean I love you. I just thought you should know that.

I hope you are doing better. I have done absolutely everything I can for you at this point. I hope that I can know very soon how you are doing, I’m truly worried about you. It’s almost funny, two people who know the general situation think that I’m not doing anything for you. What they don’t realize is that I’ve done everything I can do for now. I haven’t forgotten you or your problems, I just can’t do anything more at this point.When I can do something, I’ll be back and you know it. I love you. I love you so much that I would be willing to let this friendship die if it meant you would be okay. I need you. I love you. I miss you.      

I’m mad at you but that doesn’t mean I hate you. I’m hurt that you would do something like that, that’s all. I thought you had a lot more respect for me than that. You seem to care more about someone you just met than the one’s you’ve known for a long time. Maybe you are just blinded by emotion. That’s okay. I need you to know how it makes me feel though. You are changing in a very bad way and I can’t quite figure out why. I want to blame the other person, but I don’t think they are at fault. I think you have some serious thinking to do. I feel like you should have more loyalty to the ones you’ve known the longest. I suppose this is all a matter of opinion. I am hurt and I don’t think you care enough to notice. I’ve had enough for now. Maybe when you figure out why I’m angry at you in the first place you will have noticed enough to care.

 I hope you think for a second about how your actions are effecting the people around you. I’m not going to hate you for anything you have done, but I can’t have your back if you don’t tell me you need me to. I’m not going against anything I’ve ever said to you. I’m extremely mad at you, I don’t think you even think for a second about anyone but yourself. You say that you don’t care about yourself or that you hate yourself, but you are still acting selfishly. I wonder if you care about the rest of us at all. I feel like you just love saying "woe is me" and being done with whatever it is. You are more toxic than I gave you credit for. I don’t think I’ll make you leave though. That would be petty and stupid.

You are one person who’s cared enough to ask me how my day was every single day no matter what was going on. There are very few people who care enough to do that. You mean a lot to me. I wonder if you know just how much. I love you, little one.

Alright, readers. 

That’s enough for tonight, I believe. 

Maybe I’ll write more later.

Some things happened today that I really need to think about.

I’m too tired to type it all out now. I love you, Readers.

~♥EmieLove♥~