Catch Me As I Fall…[Continued]

 My Dearest Readers, 

I mentioned in my last post that I’m in a constant state of restlessness and that I’ve Also been really edgy, shaky, things of that nature for a little while now. I haven’t been sleeping really well for the last couple weeks. I mean, I know that I don’t normally sleep well to begin with, but still. I haven’t been. I’ve been super tense. I mean, Everything is fine with me, emotionally. I don’t know what is causing all of this restlessness. It makes me feel almost trapped in my own skin. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been trying to sleep. I’ve tried to just get myself relaxed but for some reason, I just can’t.

I Also mentioned that I’ve been feeling very lonely recently. I’ve been spending a lot of time not home, being off with two of my friends almost constantly. I’m really cuddly with one of them, too, but it just isn’t enough. I feel like I’m missing something. I crave that level of emotional attachment. I just want to be held, I guess. I feel like no matter how much time I spend with the two of them, it’s not enough. It’s missing something. On that note, Star is coming home from Korea in roughly 9 and a half months. I miss him really badly. That could be fueling the loneliness, but I don’t know…I just…I feel so…ALONE.

Finally, In the last post I mentioned that I had had a dream and that I was going to tell you guys all about it, well I haven’t fully decided if I want the world to know yet. All you need to know is that I heard a phrase right as I was waking up and I’ve been spending  a lot of time trying to figure out what it means. If I decide I want you to know, I will bring it up again, you can be sure of that.

GUESS WHAT! I turn 18 in one week. August 25th, I"M SO EXCITED! I’m having a party with a bunch of my friends. I think that it’s going to be themed, we haven’t fully decided yet. I’ll tell you more about it once the time gets closer.

Protector, If you read this, I need your help with something super top secret, and only you can help. I’ll get back to you with more information later.

Always and Forever

~♥EmieLove♥~