To Larry the Mutant Frog,

You used to care about me, in your own special way.  But I was never good enough for you – I was too insecure and too needy and it drove you to extremes. 

And I used to think that how you cared about me was the only way a person could ever care about me.  But I have learned that I was wrong and I am thankful for that – I am glad I was wrong about you.

But I still love you – always will.  🙂  You are the only person in my life who has ever and will ever had that spot in my heart.  No one had it before you and no one will have it again.

It’s what breaking up did to you – it categorized you, froze you, put you on a pedestal.  But not the normal kind – your elevation allowed me to truly see and analyze and understand.

I understand it all now.  Why you broke up with me, why it could never have worked, why we were what we were, and why it was such an incredible time in my life (and hopefully in yours).

I was just thinking about you today, that’s all.  “Drops of Jupiter” came on the radio and I touched the gold ring on my right hand and I smiled inside as your face was projected onto my mental screen.  I saw the beautiful, genuine smile that always overtook your face when I walked into a room or when DJ Sammy’s “Heaven” came on the radio when we were driving. 

We’re both different now, of course – and I wouldn’t have it any other way.  I like who I am now, the person I became away from you, and I’m sure you feel the same way about who you’ve become. 

But isn’t it nice, on cold, lonely nights, when nothing excites you, nothing warms you, to flip back through the memory files and find junior and senior prom, canoe trips, nights on Rotamer looking at the stars, Christmas, and drama afternoons?

And the roses.  You will always be my blue rose.

Always,
Spider