6/1/2004
I’m getting really frustrated with life right now – so many hours with so many questions and no way to answer them. There are people that want to try, but I can’t let anyone in right now. I don’t want to be here, don’t want to be alive, but I will stay for them.
It’s not always so bad – it comes in waves, but they’ve been staying longer and longer. And it’s spilling over onto other people, which is where I have to draw the line.
But I will stay for you. Because I don’t want to hurt you, even though this hurts me.
Is that so horrible?
P.S. Sunday through now have been some of the most horrible days of my life. It’s insane.
Jen, Are you off your meds? Do you need to get back on them or have them changed? PLEASE o get a check on this… I don’t want to hear of you hurting yourself again. Do it for us, if not for yourself.
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