December 9, 2003

12/10/03

I am scared that in 5 months, I will be twenty. Isn’t that when you’re supposed to be so grownup and so together and so ready to take on the third decade of your life? I have even entertained the thought of being married at the age of 20 (like Dawn at work, who will be a wife in 8 days (and she is only just turned 19 this summer!)) but that idea has fizzled into nothingness. Now even ENGAGEMENT before 21 seems out of the picture. It’s not as though I had an entirely firm plan for life, but I had ideas. I had hazy, fuzzy pictures of how things would be. It is just difficult sometimes to find out that these pictures cannot be painted…at least not now.

I just need to get out of here. In about a month, I am somewhat confident that my mindset will change.

If not, I’m afraid that I will have to do something drastic.

Verity and Vice.

December 10, 2003

well hey. at least you prolly will get married at SOME point in your life. me, on the other hand…I’ll be the old lady with 5 million cats. :o/ I mean damn. I still haven’t had a bf. but…so is life I guess.

Isn’t it weird how we make this mental goals. I always figured that 25 would be the perefect age to have my first child…… At 24 and 7 months I can now see that it would be completely impractical hehe. Maybe 28? Things happen when they’re meant to. Xx

food master

December 11, 2003

Got married at 19 – big mistake – divorced by 23, married again at 25 and have had 25 years & two kids of ups & downs since. Don’t be in such a hurry – be who you are meant to be for you first – marriage takes part of who you are and compromises it away – which is not always bad, but you will deny yourself some of your dreams if you marry to young. Let yourself explore all options to find out

who you truly are and what your potential really is. Love, if it’s real, waits forever and doesn’t faulter. If the man you want to marry is supportive of your continued growth and success and is proud of you and your choices, he’ll allow you the time to be who you need to be. Just remember it’s not marrying the right person but of being the right partners for both of you.

Dazedson

Foodmaster summed it up… the ideal plan for our society doesn’t work the way you just said… and I think you should really read what that person had to say about all this stuff.