be afraid

i’m just a

scared

selfish

lazy

little girl who wants nothing more than to curl up into a ball, fall asleep, and never wake up.

mr. sandman won’t come.

he’s too busy tending to those that fill their days with good things and happy thoughts and comforting words.

i don’t deserve his magic dust.

fuck that. i do.

i never do what’s right and i always know what the wrong thing is. and i go ahead and do that. silly and stupid and WRONG.

i want nothing more than to just go away from all of this. before i hurt you more.

such a little girl.

with such tremendous power.

be afraid of me.

yes…