July 19, 2013

Better … for the time being

Amazing what a little prayer, a little faith, an unexpected day off from work and a clean house can do for a person.

As usual, God has come through for me once again. Sometimes it is so hard to just let go and have faith in Him to work His magic and allow His will to be done. I have a hard time letting Him control things. Usually I will stress myself to death over it before I finally allow Him to have at it. I found myself doing that yet again and finally had to stop myself. Once He took over, things just sort of fell into place for me and I am more at peace than I was this time last week.

As I mentioned in my last entry, Hubby has fractured/broken his thumb. It happened at a pretty crappy time for me, but then again, when is a broken bone ever convenient? At least it wasn’t my hand right? He can still work so it’s all good. Especially since it is his left hand and he is right handed and is still able to wipe his own butt. The hard part is showering, getting dressed. With a plastic bag, a rubber band, a few suction cups, duct tape and a long bath sponge on a handle, he is now able to take showers without me having to help wash him. He has finally mastered the art of jeans without my help. Of course I’m sure my accidental grabbing of more than the jeans when trying to zip him up helped speed that process up. What? It’s not like he plans on having any more children … So at least I am back to being able to sleep in on the days that I don’t work day shift or night shift.

And yes, the cast is almost to his elbow … we are still trying to figure out the "WHY?" of that … and yes, the SOB hurts like hell when he rolls over during the night and hits me "accidentally" with it. Hard casts are no joke.

Work schedule changed, yet again. Bill (the owner) decided he didn’t like having the extra person standing around doing nothing on the day shift. So Rachel (the manager) is back to having the day shift all to herself 6 days a week, on top of her other manager duties, with Joleen (Bill’s Mom) filling in at the desk when Rachel has to go run hotel errands or inspect rooms.

Yes, it sucks losing that 5th day. But in hindsight, I think maybe that was what was causing extra stress for me. Especially since I was all over the shifts … 3 days (not in a row) 1 evening and 1 night with 1 day off being when I got off work at 7am and I either slept most of it, or I was miserable with only 3 hours of sleep and the next day off was 3 days later. So now I am back to 3 days in a row off (well 2 since the 1st day I get off at 7am lol). I can catch up on all my house work and laundry without having to try to do it before/after work, a little bit here and a little bit there. I hate having unfinished projects.

Now that Hubby is managing to do for himself, I don’t have his added care on my shoulders on top of having to do all the housework by myself plus working 40 hours a week. I’d really have went bonkers if The Child hadn’t been in Ohio during this time, even though I very much so need her help with the housework. As much as we need the extra money, my sanity is more important and I will stick to no more than 32 hours a week. 32 hours of pay is more than what we were getting before I got this job so we will make it work.

Hubby is convinced that because of his hand being in a cast, he can NOT make the 9 hour drive to St. Louis, MO by himself to pick The Child up from his parents. Seriously? I swear, some days it feels like I married the most un-manly of men! So anyway, Rachel agreed to cover the desk on Friday (she was already working anyway) so that I could go get her & be back on Sat. night in time to go to work at 7am on Sun (Rachel’s only day off during the week).

Guess what? His parents can’t leave Ohio till Saturday morning.

Know what that means? That as soon as they arrive (hopefully by 3pm), we have to transfer The Child to our car and immediately hit the road for back home. So if we hit the road by 4pm, that should put us getting home around 1 – 2am … in time for me to get up at 5 am to get ready to be at work at 7am. I told Hubby he might as well stay home with the dog so we didn’t have to pay any extra fees for her and since I would be doing all the driving anyway, might as well do it by MYSELF since *I* have the balls to make the drive by myself. Because even if he hadn’t broken his thumb, he was still bitching that it was too long of a drive to drive by himself. And of course, he was like, "No. I’ll go that way we can spend our last few hours without her together and I can help with some of the driving." No. Just let me go do what needs to be done, without you slowing me down. Because, that is what I do … I do what needs to be done, when it needs to be done … by myself.

So then 2pm Thursday happened … when Bill decided no extra help was needed on day shift … and Rachel said we would be going back to last schedule, which has me off Thurs-Sat. And Nikki is off Sat – Mon.

So, just out of curiosity, I asked Nikki if she would like to work Sunday day shift for me and she said, without even blinking an eye, "Sure!" Wait. What? Really? Can it really be that easy and simple? So we filled out the time off request and she signed it that she would work Sunday for me and now I don’t have to rush back home Sat. night from St. Louis, MO.

Isn’t God so amazing?!!!!! See how wonderfully He worked that out for me?

Now if I can quit stressing about Hubby’s job and give all of that stress completely to God, I will be a happier person. Because Hubby had another altercation with his supervisor this past week and is once again talking about taking an overseas job. But I can’t even go into that right now.

I’m going to try to enjoy my last week child free this coming week. Granted I work 4 of those days. I did a deep cleaning around the house yesterday to help with my stress so only light maintenance will be needed during the week. From my lips to your ears, God …

Till next time ….

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