College

I haven’t written in here for so long 🙁  To be honest with you, I come here every day and read but I just don’t write. Maybe because my life is one big ball of boring?  C’est la vie!

 

In a little over a week’s time Josh, my baby boy, who is now 18 will be leaving for college.  Granted its only about 5 hours away I am still going to miss him and worry about him.

He’s my baby.  I remember thinking when the kids were younger "I can’t wait til they are old enough to be on their own". Now I regret thinking that. I’d gladly take the bickering and arguing over having him leave but I can not be selfish all my life and I know I have to let him go off and be his own person. I know he will do well. I know he will enjoy himself. I know he’s ready. It’s ME that is not ready.

I guess I have no choice in the matter. I’m happy he’s going to college instead of hanging around doing nothing after high school.

Eric and I are planning another trip to the tropics. We can not decide where we would like to go. Definitely somewhere nice and relaxing. If any of you have any suggestions or can recommend a place that you’ve been please do.

I’m so tired right now. I just ate a shit load of carbs and I can tell.  

I think I’ll go take a short nap.

 

 

 

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I wish you would write more. Oh how I miss you so! I don’t think parents are ever ready for their kids to leave home. I still don’t think my mom is ready haha. At least you can be sure that you have a good kid who will make good decisions. He’s a smart one 🙂 I’ve been trying to limit my carbs but I love them so much. I am making barley risotto right now.

RYN: Thanks, it’s the longest it’s ever been. I have been thinking I want to cut it but I’ve never had really long hair so I am hesitant to do it. I can wait to make the announcement! Hopefully soon

It’s the start of a whole new adventure on both ends! I think that both my brother & I ended up having much better relationships with our parents once we moved out; seriously!

How did Josh get old enough to go to college?

RYN: Ok you buy the plane tix and I am so there! haha.

RYN: haha I love that you got out of your car like that. LOVE IT! Good for you. We go every once in awhile. We’ll probably go to The Last Exorcism but we’re not huge movie people. I would never go to the movies if it weren’t for Paul and Al. I will watch movies if they come on tv or if I really really really want to see it, I will go to the theatre.

RYN: Yes, Alexis is with my sister too.

September 7, 2010

so the majic jack works well? do I have to leave the computer running to be able to use the phone? I need to be able to have the computer off, but the phone still be on and be able to receive phone calls.

September 26, 2010

RYN-Yes, crazy huh? November will be 3 1/2 years! Time flies 🙂

RYN: Thanks! We’re so happy too! Love you as well! You’ll have to come on more to get updates 🙂

Hey I’m at work so I can’t use facebook and I emailed you but I have an old email addy so I thought I would come on here to say hi. I am doing well. I am 6 weeks today! WOO! How are you doing? You should come back soon and write. I miss you 🙂

RYN: OMG THANK YOU! I thought I was the only one about PPP. I mean, month one and she had a farking nervous breakdown. Come on! You just got your birth control out and you expect to be pregnant? It is really annoying I agree. I went on the forum she rec’d and had to leave because all the brits say HON every 2nd word and I can’t handle it! Advise away, I really don’t mind and welcome it actually!

Thank you. I am having…not cramping but maybe cramping. I dunno. It’s kind of down by my pubic bone and it feels stabbing like but not overly painful. I can’t explain it. So far, it’s happened 3 times today. Only for 30 seconds to a minute in duration. I am only overly concerned since my mom had like 3-4 miscarriages. I really hope that’s not what it is. I wonder what the doc could do tomorrow?

Well she is sperminated… 🙂

RYN: I totally know what you mean. It is definitely real now. I saw something living in there! It might even be forming a little penis soon haha yes i think we are going to find out the sex. I mean it is weeks and weeks away right now but as of today, yes we will find out the sex. We will have to go to the 3D ultrasound place because the hospital here does not reveal the sex.

Are you friends with PPP on facebook? Ugh, I forsee 7 more months of subtle status updates saying something without actually saying anything, I hate those!!!!!

Yeah I don’t know why we’re “friends”. She barely notes me and she has only recently because we’re both pregnant. And don’t even get me started on fb. I have a friend that does vague status updates on fb and she gets MAD when people ask her about her status. It drives me ****ing insane. I don’t like all the nicknames and slang and whatever other ****. I think I’m hormonal haha

RYN: I know, I can’t wait to feel it either. I can’t even begin to imagine what it will feel like! So excited! BTW, I had my doc appt today and GAINED SEVEN POUNDS. I was so upset. I know I have to gain weight but not really in the first trimester but I am so ****ing hungry. I cannot control it. I need help!!!!!

Thanks I’m trying not to stress about it. You’re right. Thanks 🙂 Yeah I think I will keep him ha

November 23, 2010

RN: My daughter is 5 years old. My boyfriend’s daughter is 6 years old. I’m hoping to have a boy 🙂

OMG I know! Certain people didn’t note her when she “almost lost the baby” Um, a little spotting is usually normal and you had an u/s which showed everything was fine. You did not almost lose the baby. I mean, I was nervous too when I had spotting but never once thought I might be miscarrying. FARK!!!!

Hey how is Josh doing away at college? And how are you doing? 🙂

RYN: That’s too bad that he is lonely. If you have a good college close to home why not. I guess everyone wants to spread their wings in the beginning. I know I would move back home to Moncton in a minute if Steve was up for it. Although it’s basically impossible to get a good job there since we’re both not french. Did you mean take sick leave at the end of my pregnancy or now?

I get a year btw. I think 16 or so weeks is full pay but after that, it’s like 55% if that. Ick. OMFG! Do you know what SHE was in the hospital with? A ****ing cyst on her labia, not a ****ing almost miscarriage! I know which baby forum she is on, she said it on there. Even after knowing it had nothing to do with a miscarriage, she STILL made her faves feel horrible and was a complete drama queen

I can’t ****ing handle it! I asked my friend Al if all Brits so far were overly dramatic and he said he has this girl he is friends with at work who is a freakin drama queen to the extreme. Like three of my four british faves are ****ing insane. GOD! i want to hit something!

RYN: Yeah she knows. I don’t post on there anymore because they are mostly Brits and as such, crazy bitches. Not to mention they say hun every second sentence. Geezing, I’m sounding so racist, or something. But I did have to comment on her post that I found saying it was a cyst. Here’s the link. I’m wymasa. I had to put in that I indeed had actual bleeding and hers has nothing to do with pregnancy

Well I guess I’m not “from” there. I lived there four years total (grade 4&5, 11&12) before I left for uni and thus for good. My step dad was in the military so I spent time in AB as well. I just would go back because it’s grown up a lot and is a nice small city plus my parents are there.

That’s funny about the sandbar. Would be scary though!

Oh and it’s crazy how she has EVERY pregnancy symptom like ever! Ok I’m really being a bitch now lol

Accusatory notes? Do tell!!!?

Yeah I was too excited. I crave drama I guess. haha. I didn’t realize how bad it was until recently. And then the call out on her diary pathetic. Oh wells, for some reason, I still keep her on my faves and accepted her friend request.

I’m definitely a skimmer. And yeah she talks very annoyingly. I think it’s very trashy british slang.

Is it bad that I despise TTC’ers? I hate to say that but I’ve been annoyed by them even when I was one. I mean all the symptom spotting and all of the I might be pregnant, no wait, I’m not. It’s just so HIGH DRAMA with a big let down. So annoying to read every month. I don’t think I was like that.

Well to be fair, I’ve only succumbed on OD. I really don’t feel like lugging **** up from the basement, even though it would be Steve to do it and I definitely don’t feel like decorating. I don’t have the farking energy and my house is a mess anyway so what’s the use. I’m really in the same boat as you, just trying to get into it. Fake it til you make it right?

Haha I wish you lived closer too but not for the spoiling things. 🙂 Hey if you’re around the 5th of March, I can send you the link if you wanted to see the ultrasound live. It’s 3pm my time so that would be like 2pm there and it’s a Saturday. I will send it to you and if you feel like watching, you can 🙂 Also I think I will get a link to the vid so I can post that eventually on here too 🙂

I’m excited to feel movement too. I can’t wait. I heard it can take longer to feel if you’re overweight so we shall see! Everything is different for the chubsters ha.

RYN: bahahah no I hadn’t seen any of those notes until I just looked some up. How ****ing annoying. I want to slam her face into a wall and I’ve read three notes. There are so many good things at Costco and I do have a membership but I never go.

RYN: I know I know! I can’t help it though. I will try 🙂 Thank you 🙂

December 25, 2010

RN: Thanks for the note 🙂 Merry Christmas!

RYN: Thanks! I am really happy with that practice. I mean I just met that woman today and she called. She could have left it for tomorrow morning even, ya know? I’ll take another belly pic tomorrow. I should start taking them in mat clothes because it’s much more noticeable! It’s kind of fun. I am really enjoying this pregnancy. Now that I’ve bascially let go of my weight hang ups (more or less)

January 21, 2011

RN: Thanks for the note. I guess we’re in the same boat. There’s only failure in not trying…keep it up!

RYN: ugh, I know! lol I ****ing hate drama queens. If you’re going to leave, just ****ing leave. And it’s your diary so call out the ****ing bitches who are being so “mean” I’d like to see what they actually said. I can’t imagine going through having your mom dying, I probably could not function but she had a huge amount of crazy before this. How she is a doctor I have no idea.

I was going back over my ultrasound pics and I realize I posted the video on Christmas. I’m not sure if you saw it. If you’re interested, the vid is on my Merry Christmas entry. Don’t feel obligated to look at it, I just found it and thought you might wanna see it. 🙂

RYN: Thanks for the input! Oh and you’re not silly! I teared up a bit too and I’m not nor ever have been a baby person. So maybe I’ll be good at this after all haha.

OMG, did you read crazys newest entry? FARK! I hate how she STILL writes she had a miscarriage scare. I guess she was scared UNTIL SHE FOUND OUT IT WAS A ****ING CYST ON THE OUTER PART OF HER VAGINA, HENCE NOTHING TO DO WITH THE PREGNANCY! I don’t know why it bothers me so much but I guess it is just everything is SO dramatic and about her. If anything *I* had more of a miscarriage scare than she

did, since, you know, I was actually bleeding FROM my vagina. ****! I want to hit things!

RYN: It’s so pathetic! And that whole sister thing is ridiculous because sisters wouldn’t fall out so easily. They sound like a bunch of drama queens.

RYN: Hmm good points. I thought the ottoman would be better since I can’t usually touch the ground on any chair. I thought it would be more comfortable. You can’t know these things until you experience them so it’s nice to have opinions! Would a cushy chair be better?

RYN: Hopefully! I’m not worried so that has to be a good thing. We’ll deal with whatever as it comes though. I think we’ll leave our second as a surprise! I can see the excitement in both for sure.

February 9, 2011

RN: Thanks! My ultimate goal is 165 lbs. so hopefully I don’t look too thin…my man likes a thick woman and I wanna maintain some thickness, lol…

RYN: Oh oh I think I’m screwed with the bobbin, I had to get my teacher to do it every time in home ec. lol. That’s cool that you made your dress. I just hope I can hem my pants!Then maybe I will make a dress! I did make a locker organizer and a stuffed animal in school so I know I can do it!

OMG i saw this on the front page. remember him? I feel like I am going to puke. http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=C104458&entry=23106

February 13, 2011

RN: Thanks a bunch! Yeah, 5 lbs. this week…I amazed myself, lol. I hope this week is just as good!

RYN: Totally! My mom gave them to me and I only wear those while cleaning and stuff. My feet, legs and back kill after standing on the damn tile for any amount of time. I’m still self conscious that my belly still just looks fat but I’m loving it more and more!

RYN: Ah that would have been so cool!

Hope you’re having a great day! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Ok so I work with a woman who is a drunk. Everything that comes out of her mouth is a lie and coincidentally everyone is nasty TO her. Everyone yells at her, everyone picks fights with her. It’s the drunks way. Everything is done TO them. Anyway, the point of this is PPPs newest entry. If it did happen, I would be livid. If an US tech was like that to me there is no ****ing way that I wouldn’t say

a word. How does she not know this when she is a doctor? Something like that would not happen and would not continue to happen in my hospital. Most have a whole complain department and a lowly US tech would not be able to dictate whether she got scanned again. Seriously? So I am leaning towards, did this actually happen to her? Why is everyone so mean to her? Does she come off in some way? Does

she say things to put people off? That many people cannot possibly be so mean to her? Anyway just had to give me theory because it’s kind of ridiculous. Not saying she’s a drunk though bahaha. Is it bad that I am jealous that she got to know the sex of her baby before I do. So pissy about that haha. Stupid ****ing hospital I go to!

RYN: So true, the way she ranted about nurses on one of her entries made me want to hit her. I dislike a lot of nurses at my hospital but I’m sure they sometimes know more than a stupid doctor, especially a new one at that. I can’t imagine being in her head. She really does have a lot of suck ups on her diary though. Everyone of them must be just like her.

RYN: Ugh, I know. All I read was I’M A DOCTOR, poor poor pathetic me, and my circumstances are so much more important than anyone else’s! It’s not even a good letter. I would expect more from a doctor. She is also going to get that first person perhaps fired when she basically just told a doctor to look up her own file. I know my hospital will definitely fire someone for breach of confidentiality.

And it’s true, they ALL do it. Plus, what is against looking up your own file? You have every right to your medical records. Anyway, I think she should leave that part out because she is just sounding like a high and mighty doctor and like **** she doesn’t do it herself. She perhaps could destroy the career of someone that really didn’t do anything wrong in my opinion. Anyway yeah she’s an idiot.

February 20, 2011

RYN…I know, crazy right?!?!? Im so old now! Ive been here since I was 20 years old! Things have changed so much!

Hey I see that sonflour has left her husband. Do you find she is different now that she has? Good for her I guess. Her entries, when I read some, were kind of pathetic. Anyway, I’m bored so here I am trolling different diaries lol.

RYN: I promise, I won’t! I will probably post on Sunday 🙂 No I haven’t been on amazon babies. I will check it out. Shipping here though would probably be ridiculous. The US is so lucky in some ways. Stuff is cheap there. Thanks 🙂

RYN: Thanks, we’re super happy! I can’t wait to find a name for her!

This was HER status on FB today…for Lent Ive given up being stoic and am now going to complain even more loudly till everyone’s ears bleed for the next 16 weeks. You have all been warned.*sulks* So…she’s stoic, when? I think complaining is all she does and if she does in on here and in her FB, then I’m pretty sure it’s what she does…

I miss you!!! I cannot wait for the Bahamas. I have never been there either, and in fact this is only our second all inclusive so I am pumped!

RYN: Right now, she is living with some woman who is suppose to be some kind of mentor. I think her social worker set it up.