steps in the right direction

I have had a busy few weeks. I read but really don’t write. I am back upstate with my parents and close to James. I spend about 50% of my time at James’ house and the rest with my parents.
I was having trouble knowing what to do and what not to do with the walking cast and crutches. I found I couldn’t walk at all without crutches and I had no balance at all. I called my doctor and requested physical therapy. He sent it right through and I’ve been to physical therapy 5 times so far. I go three times a week. I’m making great progress and getting much stronger. I took my first steps with a regular shoe on today! I used my crutches for support but really relied very little on them. I can’t walk with the walking cast because my balance is terrible normally…the boot has a “rocker” bottom which makes it impossible for me. I’m very happy with my progress and I know I’ll be walking in a few more weeks.
 
James has been great. I cannot complain at all. He is not my “boyfriend” but he is my love. He gives me plenty of attention, love and support. I hope it continues.
 
I have been getting attention from two other guys lately. Mike *the one with the crazy ex* and Kevin. Mike and I went to dinner one night last week. It was a great meal and good conversation but as soon as we went to watch a movie at his place he was clingy and obnoxious. I can’t do it. He isn’t right for me. I talk to Kevin nightly on Facebook chat but don’t see him. He is my sister’s friend from high-school and a sweet guy. He has a VERY rocky past and I’m not so sure I trust he is okay yet. He was an alcoholic by the time he was 18yrs old, a gallon of vodka a day alcoholic. He was arrested in at least 8 states and got DWI’s in three or four. He spent six years in and out of jail. He has been sober 3.5yrs now. I’m very proud of him for working hard and paying his debt to society. He is doing well but I don’t feel he is dating material yet.  
 
Just yesterday and old friend from high-school facebook friend requested me. He was a guy I really liked on and off from 8th grade till graduation. We were friends but we never really dated because we were both shy (I swear I was shy once). We lost contact from June 2002- sometime in college…maybe 2005 or 2006? We were reconnected through an old friend and we talked on the phone a lot. We went out once on a date but then he got back together with an ex-girlfriend and I went back to James. Kenny and I just didn’t speak again till today. He requested me yesterday and I saw he only has about a dozen friends so far and only posted one picture. I sent him a message asking how he was and he wrote back and included multiple questions about me and my accident. Our conversation went back and forth a few times. We exchanged numbers but have not talked on the phone yet. It’s really nice to speak to him and have him back in contact with me. I wonder what is going through his mind.
 
I’m excited to move with my boss and the twins in January. I’m moving on the 2nd of January regardless of my walking ability. I’m praying I’m walking fully by then or with just a cane but we will see. I really need to keep this job and get back to graduate school. I am excited to get on with life.
 
I’m not sure what I am going to do once I’m not here anymore. James will see me once a month at most unless he comes down to visit…he won’t come visit. If he did, I’d be shocked. Is that the end of him and I? Kenny works in the city too, is that the start of something new? I doubt it…he lives near James. I don’t know his schedule but I doubt it will work based on my guess of his schedule and his personality…but people change and we were always interested in each other. Let’s see what the future holds.
 
We celebrated a little bit of Christmas so far. I ended up with new tall Uggs and a cute really overly priced winter hat. Both gifts were from my aunt. She is generous and I’m thankful for my gifts. I know my parents got me a new coat (I picked it out) and my boss sent me a scarf and gloves. I’m excited for my cold weather clothing but not excited for the cold weather.