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I’m 27yr old. Sunday was my birthday. I had a good but quiet weekend. I was super emotional and cranky Friday night but James was perfect which really helped. Saturday I was disappointed in my mother but all else was okay. She basically seemed to care less about spending time with me and my father. He forced her to lunch with us then she ignored us once we were home so I ended up back with James. James was above and beyond which really helped. I asked him not to buy me anything so he didn’t but he was super attentive and loving which is what I truly needed and wanted.
Sunday I was working. My bosses left for a week long cruise. The kids are always better without their parents here. They are being good and sleeping nicely. They wake up by 6:30 but that is normal for them. Today the middle one was home from school (teacher training day) so we had a play-date over for part of the day. Now she is cranky but I’ll just make sure she goes to bed on time and she should be fine tomorrow. Tomorrow is a long day with the kids but that’s okay. We have two going to school (the oldest has a field trip), the baby has library class in the morning then gymnastics in the afternoon. We then have the grandmother coming over because she does carpool this week for the middle one then we wait for the oldest to get back from karate (he goes directly from school) and then the girls and I are going to the eldest’s baseball game. We will be home at bedtime or after, bathe them and put them to bed immediately. I think only he will get a bath tomorrow and the girls will skip it unless they are gross.
I don’t sleep well when I am in charge at night. I listen for them to breathe and roll over etc. I hear every car, train and every plane (we are in the flight path of JFK airport).
Ewe, I can actually smell myself right now. I need a shower! I took one yesterday but I cannot wait to put the kids to bed so I can shower again. We walked a lot to get to the play date’s house and pick her up.. It is hot and sunny here with no breeze (well it is breezy now). Ugh, I am not a person who sweats a lot but I 100% smell today. Sorry, you all didn’t need to know all that but I felt the need to share my thoughts.
I was reconnected on Facebook to a friend I have not spoken to since 2005. She sounds like she has had some major ups and downs but she sounds excited and happy to speak to me again. We are trying to get together at the end of the month. We were insanely crazy together so I am a bit nervous but very excited. I know she will never grow up (she’s in her mid-30’s with two children) but I did grow up a bit since then….well since January.
I really do feel like I have changed my outlook since January. I know who I am and who I want to be which is great. I am secure with being me. I don’t have the urge to sleep with everyone, do lines or other drugs anymore. I do still feel like drinking heavily on occasion but I have been amazingly good about it. I haven’t been to a bar in months and have only had a hand full of drinks with meals since January. Getting back together with James was like flipping a switch in my life. Now that I have him I don’t need all the bull shit. I am happy…stressed about the future but happy.
I think I will always stress about things I cannot control but that is me. I am coping well. I haven’t had a true anxiety attack in months (I have def had high anxiety some days).
I have made a tentative plan for my future. Once I speak to the college again I’ll write about it more. I just need to get conformation about my schedule from them before I accept my plan.
I checked my credit score today. I was surprised. It was good but there was a negative on there. It is a loan I have never been late on and have no idea why it’s a negative. It said I have been late since September of 2007 but I checked the loan and I’ve NEVER missed a payment and am still paying it. I disputed it and hopefully it will be erased off my record soon. I was happy to see my score and I know it would be higher if my debt to income ratio was better.
happy birthday
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Happy Birthday!! I am 27 too. It feels older although I don’t want to be older, I just am. Are you a nanny? I read your take care of kids. Is that just babysitting, or nannying too? Sounds more like nannying if you have to take them places and stuff. I was a nanny before my accident in the car, but my bosses wouldn’t keep my job open for me to heal, so the mother quit her job. ~
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RYN: I was a nanny to a 15 month old before the accident. The mom had me cook and clean and do laundry for the whole family. I had to clean her house from top to bottom and when she saw me sitting on my butt she’d find something else for me to do. I even did some of her business work for her. It was CRAZY, but now she left her job. Couldn’t take care of anything without me.:O( ~
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Happy belated birthday! RYN: Thanks for the info!
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