Only drinking beer…FAIL

Point your finger at me when you think about a 26yr old female making shitty decisions.

This past weekend I went home again. I had my friend, Lisa meet my train. We grabbed Wendy’s, ate quickly and headed to her boyfriend’s house to say “hi” to him and Brett for a minute. We left them and ended up at the bar by 10pm. I was “only drinking beer.” I told her to “remind me, I’m only drinking beer” a good 6 times before we got there. Not even an hour in and I was two beers and two shots deep. Lovely. I kept drinking…we left the bar at about 3am. We started to go to Mike’s house but changed our minds. I ended up in Brett’s bed. She went to her boyfriend’s place.

At the bar I saw people I haven’t seen in a while. People I was very happy to see. I ran into my friend Justine and her new boyfriend. Justine is amazing and we exchanged phone numbers so we can keep in contact. I also saw my friend’s wife…her name is Jen and we went to high school together. She was gushing about how good I look. It was a great confidence booster. She was going on and on about how “you didn’t’ get fat like the other girls.” I was a happy girl! I also got to see my friend Lindsey and my friend Matt. I spent the night hanging out with Mike, Dan, their friend Anthony and a girl named Ashley. Ashley is “seeing” Dan but she seems to think he is a player and is not going to let this go on. He really likes her and doesn’t seem like a bad guy to me. I guess you never know. Mike was weird that night. He was really drunk and highly agitated. Some guy wanted to fight him at a different bar and he was trying to get out of the drama. It had him all hyped up and antsy. He is not a fighter but I guess the guy’s girlfriend was texting Mike and came up an kissed him on the cheek. This flipped the guy out. Mike had no idea she had a boyfriend and tried to apologize to the guy which apparently made it worse. He figured it was just a case of beer muscles but I had to ask the owners not to let that guy into the bar we were in. They are good friends of mine and of course wouldn’t let this obviously angry guy in. Other highlights of the night include me, Mike and Anthony smoking a blunt in the middle on the side of a busy street with cops driving by every two-three minutes, wandering around outside in the freezing cold for no reason, dancing with the boys, taking many random pictures with Mike’s phone, having a heart to heart with Ashley, and teasing the crap out of Dan every chance Lisa and I got.

I was texting with Brett on and off during the night. Ended up in his bed. He is being “celibate” and also not drinking or doing drugs. He was definitely drunk. As soon as I got in the door he grabbed my waist and led me to the bedroom. We were naked and having sex within 2-3minutes. It was over pretty quick and we were cuddling maybe 5 minutes when I heard the rumble and he got up and went to the bathroom where I heard him puking. He eventually went to the couch and passed out which was fine with me. I slept in his bed till about 6:15am (so only an hour or two) then climbed up on the couch next to him and asked him if he felt like driving me home. He thought he should and off I went.

Dan and I have been texting and it’s fine with me. He is a sweet guy and they are not sexual at all. Mike and I text on and off but not as much. I spoke to Lisa briefly Saturday but that’s it.

I need to stop having sex just for the sake of having sex. I also need to be careful this binge drinking doesn’t get out of hand. A few weekends are fine but now it needs to slow down a bit.

I need to apply to graduate schools. I hate the application process….the essays and resumes and statements about myself. Ugh. I am thinking of doing it all this weekend…well getting the essays written and such this weekend and applying as soon as my letters of reference are back to me.