R&R

Today was my second day off of work, after working 8 days straight. Yesterday & today all I did was relax. Well, yesterday I went & paid my ticket, came home & cleaned my car. But from after that was done it was all about taking it easy! I didn’t go anywhere, I didn’t really do anything. I just chilled & it was great! I did cook dinner tonite, and cleaned up afterwards, but it was nothing strenuous! It felt so good to do nothing for awhile!

Tomorrow it’s back to work…. joy. But I work tomorrow & Friday & have the weekend off. I was supposed to work at the extravaganza with Peggy, but they had too many people and I was the last one asked I basically got the axe. Last to be hired, first to be fired! Oh well, it’s no big deal. They’re doing it again next month & Peggy said I’m guaranteed a spot. So we’ll see.

I really hope Philip follows through with this weekend. When we are together we are awesome! (And that’s why I’ve been holding onto basically nothing these past few months.) But when we’re apart, I know I’m miserable… I’m just not sure what he’s feeling. But I was straight up with him last Sunday. I think he knows how I feel. I want this sooooooooo badly! I’m never as happy as I am when I’m with him. And I’m not relying on him for my happiness, I just can’t explain it. It just.feels.right.