Frustrated…

I am officially frustrated. Frustrated with my family, my job, my love life (ahem, lack of), my best friend… everything. Nothing is going right anymore.

Anytime I’m not home, my dad drives me nuts. Hell, anytime I am home he drives me nuts. The man was put on this earth to drive me nuts. Just ask my friends. He drives them nuts as well. I’m 23 years old, I can’t take this too much longer. Thankfully the car will be paid off in November, if not sooner. I’m so out of here, I drool over the thought. ::wiping chin::

Work sucks. Inventory is 3 weeks away, we’re nowhere near ready. Mgmt. is just now figuring this out. My dept. is due for a remodel… next week. They’re not letting me do it. “We’re too close to inventory… blah blah blah”. So now I have twice as much to get ready. Mgmt. up my ass all the time, being short handed,  neighboring associates who flat out refuse to help. I’m so over it. If I could walk into any other place and make $10 an hour, plus have the job security I have now, I’d be gone.

Justin. The boy pisses me off to no end. The constant up and down with the flirting shit, I can not take it anymore. It needs to continue on one track or the other. I’m not joking. Either it moves forward or it stops. He says, “I don’t know what I want right now. I just want to have a good time”. Bullshit. Life is too short to not take a chance that comes your way. If something is staring you dead on in the face, attack it. I’m ready to just walk away from it all.

I haven’t spoken to Alaine since January 29. It really pisses me off, and it really makes me sad. We’d been friends since high school. We always kept in touch, one way or the other. I love Alaine to pieces and I miss her so much. I hate that Dane is making her make this decision. He’s such a piece of shit… I’d call her, but I’m afraid of making more problems for her with him. He’s bad for her, I know, but it’s not my place to butt in like that. Or she may resent me even more.

I am making a trip to Pittsburgh in June. My friend Jen up there is having a baby, and I’d like to see her. She called me a few weeks ago and told me she’s having a boy. I’m excited about going up. It’ll be great. I’m gonna fly, and then rent a car when I get there. Airfare is only $175. Car rental is the kicker: $300!!! Because I’m uner 25, some place won’t rent to me, and the ones that do want an extra $20 – $25 a day. Sucks to be me. But It’ll be a good trip. I just have to start saving pennies.

I need to get out and have a good time. Without stupid issues getting in the way. I wish Alaine would call me already. I’m so worried for her. I think about her everyday, but I don’t know what to do about it. I’m tired of letting it rest though. She and I always had such a good time together. We’ll see.

Ciao! (for another month or two!) >:)