I Will Find a Way and I Will Have You

There is no wall on the back of my house. Well, no exterior wall anyways. We’re having the siding replaced, and today they started the backside of the house. Idiots, they left the wall bare, with no house wrap or anything on it. Just exposed wood and insulation. Dad was none too thrilled. So they’re coming back out to wrap the house! Ha, do a job right the first time and it won’t need to be redone.

So we’re getting all this shit done to the house. New siding, new sliding glass door, new window in my parents’ room, new window in my bathroom… I hate having strange people in the house. Especially when my sister is the only one at home. But my dad seems fine with it, so what can I say?

Nothing new on the love life front. I’m just chillin. Seeing if anything happens. Never will though, I’m convinved. I’m supposed to be alone. I’m destined for it. I don’t see myself spending my life with anyone. Sad to say, but I’ve known it for years. Even when I was with the terrible ex, I never really saw myself being with him forever. So now I figure, why even get involved? I know how it’s going to end. I’ll pull the person in, slowly drive them away, but keep holding on. Eventually the person will want nothing more to do with me, ever. That’s how I’ve always done it. Why? I don’t know why. I’m just a sick, sad individual.

Work sucks. I love the holiday season, and I hate it too. I love it because it’s busy, there’s always something to do. I hate it because there isn’t enough time, or enough space to get it all done. The store just gets packed with merchandise. You can’t find anything, stuff gets so messed up it’s not funny. And then threre are the people. Droves of rude, snotty assholes. People, if I say “I don’t know” then I don’t know! There are hundreds of thoudands of items in the store and I can’t always keep track of them all! “Well, it was there last week”. Then you should have bought it last week. “I saw it in another store…”. Then go to that store and get it! I don’t have it!

Please, please don’t treat me like shit just because I work here. Because, contrary to popular belief, I don’t have to take it! I can walk away and have you escorted out of the store! Have a nice day!

God, don’t you just love retail?

Um… I don’t know what else to write. I need to do it more often though. Yeah right, I always say it, but never do it. Ciao!