and now for something completely different

Well, it didn’t take long.

 Justin doesn’t work in my dept. anymore. And that would suck, except for the fact that it means we can be friends outside of work now. So, I don’t sit at home, bored off my ass every night. It’s driving my dad nuts, but oh well. He needs to just deal.

So anyways, Peggy, one of my friends from work, has been friends with Justin for years. So we’ve been hanging out almost everynight this past week. We’ve just been at Justin’s parents’ house, painting Xmas stuff with his mom. It’s relaxing. We paint, and rag on Justin, and talk, and it’s just too fun.

So Peggy goes and asks Justin, well I’m not sure exactly what she asked him. But it had to do with his feelings for me. She had made the comment the night before, quite loudly I might add, something about chemistry. I knew exactly what she was talking about. And she’s right, there is some chemistry between he and I. She asked him if he was afraid. And he didn’t answer her. So what I can gather: he likes me, he might like to be with me, but he’s afraid of something.

He’s afraid of commitment. I know that already. He’s told me flat out, he’s always been afraid of committing. And right now I don’t know what I want. If I want a long term something or other, or just a fling or something. I’m thinking I’m just gonna say fuck it and wait and see what happens. Go for it, and if it doesn’t work out, oh well.

I can’t change him, I know that. But I might as well try and have some fun. Right? Maybe he’ll change himself…???