not much better…

i thought we has an understanding a few days ago. but it’s back to wheew we were. i spent the night at a friend’s house, and when i came back we talked. but it didn’t get better. he’s mad because i don’t make as much money as he does. well, i’m not supposed to! i’m happy with my job and the money i make is just fine. but he wants a new bike and a new car. and he doesn’t make enough money to afford either so i guess he thinks i should! we live in a nice place, the bills get paid, we have clean clothes and food to eat. but it’s not enough. i don’t think we need anything else. i love him to pieces and this is tearing me apart. i want to spend the rest of my life with him. but i don’t want to be blamed for all of his shortcomings. i’m happy with what i do and i am happy with him. i haven’t asked him to change anything about himself. i don’t think i should have to give up my happiness for anyone but me.