Get tomorrow over with

Yesterday was another lovely day.  I continued on my "Operation-Make-Matt-Not-An-Albino" and decided to walk down to the fake beach at Southbank.  It’s no stretching beach like I was at on Saturday, but there’s not really much else within the Brisbane area, that I can think of.

I noticed not many people were tanning at all.  Usually the grassed-hill has quite a few people tanning away on it, but it was empty.  There were a few people on the sand, but not many.  Still, being a nice day and a Sunday around 11am, there were quite a few people.  I decided it’s not really the place to strip down to my speedos, like the coast was.  It just didn’t feel right.  Maybe the lack of space and small children everywhere, it just seemed weird.  Even taking my shirt off felt weird.  I ended up finding an empty spot opposite the main area near the Lifeguard tower, and just sat there and observed for a while.

I watched a couple of little kids swimming in the ‘deep water’ (1.8 meters) area and the Lifeguard was onto it as she saw them struggling to doggy-paddle to the ledge.  She made it to them just as they reached the edge and just warned them that it was deep there and to be safe.  I was happy that she did her job well – prevention is always better than cure.  They went to the shallow area after that, but were back in the deep area less than 10 minutes later.  Children… lol.  They kept doggy-paddling away – i don’t even think they really knew how to swim.  I wondered where their parents were, then noticed the same lifeguard back over on the other side, talking to a group of adults and pointing toward where the kids were.  Haha.

Anyway, so I laid down, applied sunscreen and tanned away for a while.  Of course, there was a palm tree above me and a couple of crows decided to sit in there and talk to each other really loudly, but it wasn’t blocking the sun, so it was kinda nice.  Not overly hot at all, kinda just nice.  I noticed a group of guys over the other side – one looked kinda okay I spose, but no-one really worth looking at.  Definitely nothing like the Gold Coast the day before.

Other than that, I just bought some groceries (yay I’m writing about grocery buying – maybe I should create a Lara Bingle-style show as well!) and did my washing.  I made my bed properly and added another blanket to it tonight.  I did well with just my main blanket, but I’m usually slightly cooler than I’d like, so I added another.  I do notice that when I’m too hot when I sleep, I tend to have nightmares.  It’s 3:30am as I’m typing this, but at least I have slept.  I woke up around midnight.  I knew I’d had a nightmare, but I can’t remember what it was about, so it can’t have been overly bad.  One good thing about inheriting my father’s bad memory I guess.
Speaking of, apparently it was my friend Matt’s birthday at The Beat last night as well as Vish’s.  I’d completely forgotten about it.  Had I been using facebook still, I probably would have been reminded.  It made me laugh as another example of how much people rely on it.  Tomorrow will be a week since I’ve deactivated it. 

This week seems like it has been the longest ever.  I dunno why that is – I guess because I’ve been doing so much, trying to get some sort of plan into action.  But that plan aqll depends on wherever offers me a job.  The position on the Gold Coast I applied for has been taken down off the website, but I haven’t heard anything from them, so who knows what that means.  Another job I wanted to apply for, also isn’t there anymore.  Bit annoyed I didn’t, but I know the job would have been a big challenge had I applied.  So, I’ll either hear about the job that was taken down, or they’ll be like every other employer and just not let you know.  At least one of the airlines I applied for let me know I wasn’t successful.  I think I’d rather know a straight out ‘Yes sure’ or ‘Fuck No’ than wondering if the position has already been filled or if I should keep hassling them.

I’m doing okay the last few days.  No breakdowns, just trying to remain positive.  I think from reading back through my astrological chart, it’s made me not feel so bad for being exactly the way my ‘stars’ say I’m meant to be.  I do find it fascinating that it says I need absolute freedom and can’t be tied down to anything.  I don’t have commitment issues – it’s the way of the Saggi! 😛  And it gives advice also during the negative aspects of the Saggi, it just says that things can be turned around quite easily but only if you really let them.  So, at this point in time, I’m just thinking ‘Whatever will be, will be’ and wherever I do end up working, so be it.  Even the astrological chart says that I really need a job that involves hard work and independence or at least free from Authority figures.  Yeah, we’ll see how that goes.  It’s definitely me though.  I certainly work better and feel much more productive when I am left to complete a task.  I need the self-satisfaction and I pride myself on it.   Maybe i should just made like a slut I know, who charges $300 per half hour in his prostitution side-project.  He says he doesn’t like the ‘gross-as-guys’ prospect of it, but it’s helping him through uni.  He’s 21 and has no inhibitions.  I’m 28 and do haha – I’m too old for it anyway even if I could do it.  Kinda respect those who do.  I have a female friend who does it for a living.  Bitch takes home min-$3600 a week.

It’s Monday now – very early in the morning, and I’m about to do my music chart.  A properly formatted one for the first time.  I tried to add images to it, but for some reason Microsoft Excel doesn’t like it, so I wasted hours getting images for nothing 🙁  I guess it’s all a learning experience.
I tried to register my course, but of course it says they don’t recognise my details.  Fuckers.  I did look at the FAQ’s and it says that sometimes they aren’t sent details of new students for a few days, so to try logging in again later in the week.  I will do that, but I was actually looking forward to getting stuck into it today when the sun comes up.  So much for that.  If they don’t let me log into it by the end of the week, I’ll be blasting someone though.  The website does have tips of what order to do the courses in and stuff, so it wasn’t all a complete waste of time.  I need to learn things like that.

Tomorrow will be a fucking scary day.  In 33 hours I’ll be sitting in the clinic getting my test results.  In the past I’ve always run up, but this time I have booked an appointment, mainly due to the nurse suggesting they’d rather patients be in a supportive environment in case the results aren’t what they want them to be.  Scary shit.  I think even sitting there will freak me out.  Ringing up after a week is scary enough – waiting for words to escape from a nurses mouth would be even scarier.  It’s gunna be a case of "Gotta get this over with" tomorrow morning.  Then about three months of wearing a chastity belt outof fear lol.

I have no idea why "Rage" is playing on ABC right now.  It’s Monday morning and normally this is only on during weekends.