Try to make the most of it

We either love it or hate it, but either way we can’t avoid it.

This year’s Christmas is being spent at home in Brisbane with the housemates.  My older brother offered to pick me up and drive me out to the farm, but there’s no point since I’m rostered on to work tonight.  It’s no extra pay either.  Yep, Christmas Day, no extra.  Lame.

I’ve put my presents under the tree for the housemate and landlord.  Adriano’s friend I didn’t get anything as I didn’t know she’d be here, so I feel bad about that but oh well, what can I do?  I’m not giving her my work secret Santa present – I’ve gotta take that to work tonight.

Fibre-Optic-ness On

Without

As you can see, there are very few presents under the tree.  I’m actually surprised there are others next to mine!  I haven’t gotten anything for Christmas for at least the past five years.

 
Try to enjoy your day wherever you are in the world.  I’ve read a few entries the past few nights where people have been feeling down in the dumps about Christmas.  I’m not with my family this Christmas, but in a way it’s a blessing because I don’t have to deal with dad’s confused look as to why I don’t have a girlfriend on his face, nor him asking me if I do have one.  The whole ‘Dad I’m gay’ thing back in 2002 or 2003 (I can’t even remember) clearly didn’t phase him lol.  And I also don’t have to act ‘straight’ around my one surviving grandparent who is "never to ever find out" (quote from my mother).  Pfft.  As if I care if she does.  Worse thing is the old bat is 81 and healthy as anything, so I think I’ll have another 19 years of avoiding it if I’m around that long.
And yeah, I haven’t seen my parents in ages.  They seem to be the connecting network between me and my siblings and anyone else related really.  Or maybe I’m just the outcast black sheep as I don’t know of any even distant relatives who were gay.  I’m going solo!  Christ almighty!  Oh wait, I can’t say that on xmas day can I?  Oh wait I can’t even use the word ‘X’ in Xmas – it has to be ‘Christmas’ to emphasize ‘Christ’.  Yeah, this is what my family is like.  Religious brain-washed nutcases.  I wonder what sort of life I’d have had I not been raised that way.  GOD so much wasted time.  Oh wait, I can’t use the lord’s name in vain. 

Fuck.
 

 

Ergh, it’s all so generic – even the above thingy I thought was cute in the google images.  I’ve already had about 5 generic merry Christmas text messages.  Although I try to be appreciative, it isn’t a personal greeting.  It doesn’t mean shit and people who send them are just a part of the flock.
Call me the Grinch is so be it, but I actually like to feel like I mean something. It really is just another day.  I usually don’t even buy presents, let alone receive them, but this year I thought ‘Why not?’ and try to somewhat create my own.

i have to help my landlord shift some huge tractor machine digger thing from the side of the house because it’s too heavy for him to lift himself.  So I can just see I’m gunna put my back out on Christmas Day, before I have to work tonight.  I have to fit in sleep somewhere before that and try to wake up in time to join my housemates for the traditional Christmas dinner.  My landlord really goes all out with it every year.  The fridge is packed full of proper foods, there’s a turkey in the oven and sauces and there’s even parfait in the freezer.

I’m not feeling the Christmas cheer at all this year, but I’ll try to make the most of it.