Education decisions

Thank-you guys, I really appreciate the support.  That was a horrible feeling yesterday afternoon.  I felt a little bit better after taking some Dispirin to rid myself of the headache, which in turn I figure was making me not wanna lift my head from the pillow, and making me feel like crap, leaving me alone with the nasty thoughts going through my head.
I was in a bitch of a mood still though, but I felt better, and I decided to get some of my own back against my housemate.  I cancelled the internet.  Finally.  It’s gone.  First time I rang I spoke to some guy who put me through to the relocations department (typical: idiots don’t listen) and I hung up on him accidently before it all went through, so I rang up again and spoke to a lady this time, who said the guy I’d spoken to was in the relocations department, and since I only wanted to disconnect the service, he would’ve been no use to me.  So this lady put me through to the right department, where I spoke to another lady, who asked me the security questions, and tried to keep me by offering cheaper deal etc.  I stuck to my guns and said I didn’t need it anymore.  Fuck my housemate.  He is NOT going to keep treating me this way and get away with it when I pay for the internet.  It’s not gunna be fair on the new housemate moving in this weekend, but meh I’m really over it.  The lady was nice and said there wouldn’t be any fees, as I was well over my contract (which I knew I was) and she said it’d be disconnected.  She also reminded me my email address would be no longer valid.  This was a slight problem, as some of my emails go there, but it wasn’t enough to make me keep it.  My main issue with that is my vodaphone bills go there haha, and I can’t seem to find anywhere on the website where I can change my details grrr.  Oh well, I’ll just have to ring them I think, because I don’t think they send out paper bills.
So internet is gone.  I went to sleep after that, being sure to turn my phone on silent, because I KNEW Jeff would send me a message asking if I could get the internet to work.  He can change the password all he likes this time.  I left the modem and the router in the cupboard, so he can try all the tricks he likes.  I was sure to check the modem before sleeping though, and the ‘Online’ light was off 😀  Suck on that Jeff.  If he wants internet he can wait until Andrew gets it connected in his name OR he can do what I did and sign up to mobile internet.

So yes, I tried out my mobile internet.  It’s not bad.  I can see myself using a lot of it though haha, as I only have 8G’s a month.  I also put an ad up online looking for somewhere to live, preferrably on the southside.  I applied for one ad I saw with three others, and it was cheap as chips with a pool in Sunnybank (where I lived a few years ago) but it depends on if they are gay friendly, and if the room is still available, as the ad was put up two days ago. 

I kinda wanted to try to save up $10,000, as a buffer before quitting my job and moving to another scary city I’m not used to, but I’m a fair way off it 🙁  I figure I should be sensible enough to be able to live off of that, but it just sucks when you’re trying to save as much as you can.  My savings is for a lot of different things, which keep changing all the time – the most recent being to save up capital to start my own business.  A house deposit was what i was going for, but you like like $30,000 for that these days.  And as psych doesn’t seem to really be working out for me, I’m now thinking of applying for a course in business.  But once again, I can see my Maths B result in high school is going to let me down, so I’m gunna be back to looking at that Maths B Bridging course down the Goldie, which is gunna kill a night of work for me because it ends too late 🙁  Why doesn’t anything work out?  And why does education have to be so pricey in Australia?  I hear in Ireland it’s free!  Even this bridging course is a minimum $200 for a few sessions, but I really think I’m gunna need it.  I’m really gunna have to pull my head out of my arse and start from the bottom if I’m gunna reach the top, at all.  I can’t let even work get in the way of my future, as much as I hate to be saying no to money I kinda need, and I’m sure my boss will be annoyed with me when I tell her I can’t work Monday nights because of the course.  I do like the sound of the course though, and how they try to individually help you if even one student is stuggling (which I’m sure will be me lol).  i just keep thinking back to high school in Maths B where my maths teacher, Mr Hawkins, really didn’t like me.  And it’s weird to say that, because I actually thought he was a great teacher.  I’m thankful for a lot of my teachers in school, there were some cool ones, especially my first school’s history teacher, Mrs Hegerty, she was a real gem 🙂
So yeah, can anyone seeing me doing business?  it’s like the most expensive course, even for a diploma lol, but I guess that makes sense.  Of course I’d say Medicine and Law would be more.  I guess I can only try.

I woke up at midnight tonight/This morning.  I’m currently at Southbank, once again leeching their internet lol, but it’s going really slow today (surprisingly there are a few other people here this morning, at 4am) so I don’t think I’ll be getting anywhere with these TV shows I’m trying to download.  I’m really into this show called ‘The Gates’ at the moment.  My mate Zach got me into it.  It’s a cross between True Blood and Desperate Housewives, really.

I went to gym this morning too, something I didn’t do yesterday.  It was amazing.  I love the feeling I get after gym, although I did what I normally do, I don’t feel I pushed myself as hard as i could have.  I love it when I can feel my biceps pressing against my skin, that’s when I feel I’ve done well.  Although I am enjoying flexing them right now haha.  I realise I’m like slim as, but meh, I still feel good about it, so I guess that’s the main thing.
I got to the gym at 2:30am, well awake from slumber, and the lights were on, but nobody was there.  Someone must have just left.  So I had the whole gym to myself.  I absolutely love that.  I dunno why.  I don’t mind it if people are there.  I especially don’t mind it if there are HOT people there, but that’s pretty rare at Jett’s.  All the hotties seemed to be at Goodlife, back in those days.  I’m glad I’m only paying $318 for the year compared to Goodlife’s $800 or so.  Geesh!

I got my haircut yesterday as well!  WOW I look different alright!!  The mop is gone – I even kinda look straight haha – yeah right!  The chick who cut my hair, or moreso I should say, SHAVED my hair off, was so rough!  She kept digging the clippers right into my head and the scizzors as well – razor sharp sizzors right near my temple – I thought I was gunna die!  I even uttered a few ‘Ow’s’ here and there, which she ignored.  I guess cos of the mood I was in yesterday, I wasn’t really chatty to her, like hairdressers are, but I’ve been to that hairdresser before, and I quite liked them!  But after this occasion, I won’t go there again!  I guess that’s what I get for a $25 haircut 🙁  And I don’t even know if I like it.  I was squirming when I saw all the hair falling onto my lap from the number 5 clippers – I thought they stopped using those back in the 90’s!  Gah, so yeah, I can no longer straighten my hair at the back or sides, there’s no hair there to do it with.  She was kind and left a little at the top, thank fuck, but man, I hope I’m still as good looking as before – haha 😛  Oh well I thought I was, don’t care if you bitches don’t!  But man, it’s short!  Soooo short.  I’m even noticing stupid things, about how I can now see my ears and crap, and even looking in the mirror at gym, i kept thinking to myself it really needs a colour to it.  It still looks ok, I’m just not sure on it.  I don’t think it suits my natural colour, but I couldn’t really afford the extra $80 for a colour yesterday, and if it was anything like the bloody cut was, I’d probably turn out with blue hair afterwards!  "Hi, my name is Courtney, I’ll be looking after you today," and "I’ll see you next time", after I paid.  Like hell you will bitch.  🙂  So, I think maybe some colour in it might make me feel a little more at ease. 

Here’s a pic I took using daithbooth.com whilst sitting right here – i really should prep myself and not wear shit clothes, but hey this jacket is warm and it is still 4:50am at the moment 😛  So yeah, you get the idea – def hate my natural colour, but its so easy to maintain now I guess.
What do you think?  I’m thinking a blonde followed a silver toner?  Yeah, no way, you’d never catch a straight guy talking like this lol.

So yeah now I’m just here, until my battery runs out or these shows actually download – don’t think it’ll happen.  I get paid tonight at midnight, thank Christ for that!  All those damn shifts in a row will finally come back to reward me.  I’m seriously thinking about going out to Escape nightclub on the Gold Coast tomorrow (Wednesday) night, as it’s boys night there, and I’ve never been to Escape before.  I still got tonight to go before that, but I should be paid by then, and I can catch the train down, hopefully have some fun, and be back in time hopefully hangover-less before work on Thursday night 🙂  I dunno, just seems like a plan to me.  Only problem is trying to find someone to go with me, as I know when I go to a strange club before by myself I feel SOOOO outta place haha.  I guess if I just stick to drinking my Cointreu lemon lime and bitters I’ll be fine, but will still look stupid by myself 😛  Oh well, Im a tourist 😀

I feel a bit better today.  I have considered that option of seeing a doctor for depression, but when does one qualify for depression-ism?  Like I hate that horrible feeling when I do get it (like yesterday) but it’s not every single day, thank GOD.  Still, it’s not healthy hey.  I have a few friends on anti-depressants, and they swear by them, but what are their side effects?  Do they affect other medication?  Or alcohol intake?  I dunno hmmmm.  It’d be cool to be a happy buzzing little bee all the time 🙂