Fuck this

I’m starting to feel like I can’t do this anymore. I finally get a weekend off and all I’ve done is sleep during the arvo and wake up well into the night, too late to bother going out unless i wanna pay cover-charge, and I don’t get paid til next week after busting my arse for the last fortnight and I’m just all over the place. My mood has been utter boredom. It’s 3am and I can’t exactly go anywhere or do anything. I’m gunna go to the gym – not like there’s fuck all else to do.
The mood I’m in right now is pretty depressive. Like I’m finding myself thinking that if I did drugs I’d just end it, because I’m not even on anything and I feel like I wanna kill myself. Gotta love those depressive moods that kick in every so often. I feel like I’m worthless to everything right now. I figured it was better writing it in here than complaining to the actual 2 people who are awake right now on facebook chat – they don’t need my problems. I just gotta shake this. I dunno how people do it. Especially uni students, money-wise. Fuck this.

nthaniel

*hugs* and I hope you get to feeling better soon. If you need to vent more, do it, by all means. Better to get it out than hold it in!

^melting moments^

Matty *hugs* I am so sorry to hear you’re so down!! Your body clock is all out of whack hon. Maybe that is impacting on your moods. If this depression carries on, maybe you could talk to your doctor about it. I know I have been feeling 100% better since I did.

fading memories

awe. dont feel so down! youre never worthless. youll make it through.

~Octopussy~

I know what you mean…

sicksadworld

i feel ya on that… hope you were able to get to the gym and get those endorphins pumpin and help you to feel a smidge better! someone already wrote that the sleep cycle can make you feel like crap too and they are COMPLETELY right about that! hope things get better for ya super quick!

oh i’m so sorry to hear you are going through a slump… they suck so bad. life can be total shit sometimes.

You’re not worthless to me…

I hope you feel better hun, maybe the trip to the gym will boost those endorphins and make you feel better 🙂 xxx

TobiMac

If you need to talk, please call. I’d be glad to listen to your rants, especially if it will help you feel better.

Rerrin

Yep, money fucking sucks! Is it your timetable making you feel down? That everyone else is asleep and you’re stuck wide awake? Maybe you should consider changing jobs. You’re definitely not worthless! Love you xox

An American Redhead

:/ I understand all to well these days.

I hear ya. Money probs are like… bullshit. I have a near panic attack every time I fucking think about it.

PEEKABOO

July 19, 2010

I agree with your first noter… take care.