Those Who Fascinate Me

People who fascinate me are people who I feel have life figured out.  The kind of people who I can talk to, or read their blog, and say to myself, ‘You are one amazingly cool person.’  There aren’t many people out there like this, or many that I’ve managed to come across anyway.  I guess they are the people who are always surrounding themselves with other positive people.

I’ll go into detail about what I’m on about.

I have always been a firm believer in the fact that those who have life figured out are the most non-judgemental people at all.  The kind of people who can offer a word or kindness or indefinite wisdom beyond their years.  Someone who helps someone out, whilst getting no personal gain from the experience, other than that happiness of doing so.  Someone who doesn’t judge people – who is not racist, sexist, homophobic or even the slightest bitchy.

What’s brought this on, is I came across a diary on the front page of OD today where I read a few entries and I thought to myself, ‘Wow, this could be one of those people."  I realise I’m jumping to conclusions as I have no idea whom this person is, but each entry I read was happy and positive and expressed views on what they thought of the amazing world around them.

I guess I wish i could be like that.  I’d like to think I am in a way.  Quite a few people I’ve dated or friends I’ve made have actually said to me they are amazed that I can see the positive in a bad situation.  Anyone who needs my OD extensively will know the answer to this differs sometimes haha, but c’mon, I gotta have a venting outlet somewhere!

But yeah, I love to meet a positive person who hasn’t let the world get to them.  Who see’s past the negative things of the world such as cancer, poverty, AIDS, earthquakes, abortion/miscarriages, death etc.  They don’t just ignore it, but they look for a reason for themselves to believe that it makes the situation nowhere near as bad as it seems.

My housemate is a brilliant example of this.  He is a caring, beautiful soul, yet he lives his life how he wants to, and knows how to have a good time.  He lost his father at a young age, and he was wearing a jacket last week when i was outside chatting to him and his friends who were over for drinks.  He said whenever he wears it, it reminds him of his dad, as it used to be his.  He doesn’t tear up, he just smiles at the memories.  He makes people laugh and they love his company.  I can see it.

I guess it might have taken something like that to make him the way he is today.  Or he just may have always been that way.

That’s the thing when you meet someone.  You don’t know their back-story.  If I meet someone at the age of 12, or if I meet the same person at the age of 30, things would be very different!  It’s what amazes me about life.  Life happens.  It happens around me.  Not just my life going on, and the good and bad in it, but there are millions and millions of actions and words and thoughts and falling-in-loves and heartbreaks and devastations and motivations and glee and surprises and failures and congratulations going on all around this world, and because we can’t get to know all of these amazing people who are out there, we can’t celebrate their good times with them.

I guess all I can do is be thankful for the friends I do have.  Be happy when a mate passes an exam or gets a new boyfriend/girlfriend or get a new job.  What I like about starting a new job is not just the job itself, but how I can meet so many more amazing people in the process.  I see those people more often than you see some of your non-work friends, and can make the closest of connections.

I’d like to think that when I die, people will know that I’ve given life a go.  Right now I feel like I’m just waiting, with the whole trying to get into uni thing, but even if I don’t, I know I’m not gunna give up on it.  I realise with my situation this morning/last night that I fucked up, big time.  I’ve realised my mistake and I’ve tried my best to rectify the situation.  I haven’t run away from it.  And I guess because I’ve been stuck here at home the last 2 days being sick, I’ve gone all philosophical with this entry. 

Where do I find these people?  Do you know of any?  Do you have a friend whom you look at and go, ‘Wow, you’ve grabbed life by the balls and have it all figured out in your favour.’? 
I think this about many of my friends, I really do.  I realise everyone has their flaws, but I always try my best to look through to the good things I can see in them.  It’s just me and always has been me, and I don’t think I’m gunna change anytime soon.