Not a big deal

Big Girls Don’t Cry – Fergie

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You’re probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It’s personal, myself and I
We’ve got some straightenin’ out to do
And I’m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I’ve got to get a move on with my life
It’s time to be a big girl now
And big girls don’t cry
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Don’t cry

The path that I’m walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps ’til I’m full grown, full grown
Fairytales don’t always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We’ll play jacks and uno cards
I’ll be your best friend and you’ll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
‘Cause I want to hold yours too
We’ll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it’s time for me to go home
It’s getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

God this is a good song.  Normally i get sick of a song after a couple of weeks, but this one’s sticking around 🙂  Kinda makes me, happy somehow.

Thanks for the kind words guys.  Yeah it sucks not being able to do everything, but I can still do some stuff.  Thing is, I used to be able to do pretty much EVERYTHING forum-wise, and I can only do some things now, and I believe that’s cos I fucked up, but hey, there’s only way way to find out what certain buttons do, and that’s to try them 🙂  Hehe, and i was gunna fix my mistake but didn’t get the chance.  Not a big deal was changed – nothing major.  I’m smart enough to stay away from the big stuff.  Yeah the site owner always has been a bit of a strange one, even in the 6 years I’ve been a member.

So I had to take Bryn to the hospital yesterday afternoon.  He said he wasn’t feeling well and thought it could be a heart-attack.  I don’t think it was that, but he definitely didn’t look good, so he got his medication and i rushed him up to the hospital.  As I pulled up in  the set-down area, a nice lady (a nurse I presume) called through the open passenger side window ‘Do you need a wheelchair, Sir?’ (as she was just gonig backto the building with one.  Bryn hopped in  it, I gave him my phone number and the nurse told me he’d be in  the emergency ward.  I took off.  It was all rather quick.  Like driving him there and driving home didn’t feel long at all.  In a way i’m glad I had the house to myself (well Billy my other housemate too, but he rarely bothers me), but I hated the circumstances for it. 

I didn’t want to go to work this morning.  Really didn’t.  I had a weekend of doing fuck-all, and I wanted to keep on doing exactly that.  I layed in bed from when my alarm went off at 3:58am, til about 4:50am (I start at 5am), with the intention of calling in sick, but I changed my mind and asked if I could change my hours to later on.  I had to feed Bryn’s dog, as he can’t do it, I’m babysitting lol.  She’s a good dog.  I cooked her lamb, mince and mushrooms last night for dinner and the last egg I had too (all on her OWN George-Foreman grill).  I cooked myself chipolatas, and I gave her the ones I didn’t end up eating after i was full.  So i think I fed her well.  I just took her dinner for tonight out of the freezer to defrost.  To Bryn, that dog is all that matters in his life, so I wanna do a good job keeping her healthy.  I gave her dry dog food and put her in the laundry outside before I left for work this morning.  I got home and just let her out then. Feel bad she has to be cramped up for 8 hours, but i don’t really have another option.  It’s all good, not really much trouble.

I see they’ve put up a sign at the gym next door.  $320 for 12 months gym or arobics.  Reckon that’s good value?  Didn’t see if there was a joining fee.

Hope you’re all having a great week.

OMG i didn’t realise that guy from High School Musical was so HOT.  Dayam!  19’s legal 😛 His body is a lot better now than it was in the movie!  He’s in hairspray too, which i can’t wait to see when it comes out!

I know, I’m gay, get over it 😀