Dream Patterns

It Happened Anyway – Billy Gilman

When Jamie died
And I didn’t understand
The eternity of my sadness
I wised I could have prevented it

When I rest in bed
Dream about how I could have
Lived and played with my brother
How I wished that I could have saved him

If wishing could bring him back
He’d be here with me today
But then, I remember…
It happened anyway

When I look at pictures
And imagine what he would be like
Now a dozen years old
I wish I could have saved him from agelessness

If crying could bring him back
He’d be here with me today
But then I remember…
It happened anyway

When I think of why and how
He was with us and left us
I wished I could have prevented it
And stopped his death, and saved hium from
Never needing breath for birthday candles…
For birthday candles

If wishing could bring him back
He’d be here with me today
But then I remember…

When Jamie died I didn’t understand
Oh, but then I remember
It happened anyway
It happened anyway
It happened anyway

Probably one of the saddest songs of all time – and I bless you with it’s inclusion today 🙂

So, I met my online friend Dion today!  Being Tuesday, I didn’t start work til 7pm, so was doing sweet fuck all around the house, and was on MSN.  My housemates were both out somewhere, and Dion was online.  He’s just come down from Darwin to live here, hopefully for a long time.  He was bored also and waiting for his housemate to finish work so he came over here and visited me!  What a cool guy.  He’s rather cute too, but I already knew that.  I was a bit nervous, as I ALWAYS am meeting new people in person.  On MSN you’ve always got that barrier.  He was cool though and told me to just be myself, cos that way I’d be a better host.  Well, I tried to be the best host I could, considering I had sweet fuck all to offer him (wow that’s twice I’ve used that phrase and I’ve only just started the entry – sweet fuck!)  To offer him, I mean by ways of food to eat.  The only drink I could offer was tea, coffee, water or juice.  He opted for a water and a juice later on.  Normally I would have food but hey I’m poor atm!  Either way we seemed to have fun, chatting for a bit, then we went to the shops cos I wanted to show him Chermside, and I shouted him KFC there.  He’s currently looking for a job.  He hates not doing anything and his last job in Darwin was in mental health, but he reckons he’ll settle for anything right now cos he’s just so damn bored.  I remember when I was like that, when I first moved here.  We then came back here, and Bryn was home by then, to Bryn saying we’d had burglars.  I looked at the screen door and the lock had been busted right off.  We were only gone for about 40 mins, and it seems Bryn might have come back just in time because he reckons he saw someone running off down the side driveway alongside our place.  Thankfully it doesn’t look like anything is missing, but God it was a close call.  I had locked up before I left but only the screen door as I figured we weren’t going for long.  Not anymore though!  They are both being locked.  Scary shit though, knowing everything you’ve earnt and bought for yourself over the years can be gone in a flash all cos of one fuckstick’s thieving desires.  I’m even gunna have to close my windows, and my rooms gunna be like a biler by the time I get home.  Dion and I then watched "Another Gay Movie" and my other housemate arrived home during that time, and they were wondering why we were laughing so loud.  That movie certainly doesn’t hold back hey 🙂

After that Dion showed me a few videos on Youtube including Bianca Ryan’s version of ‘And I’m Telling You I’m Not Going’, which I’d seen before but definitely didn’t mind seeing again.  Un-fucking-believable is all I can say.  I remember the first time I saw it I was gaping at the screen!

Oh well, there it is for anyone who doesn’t know what I’m talking about.  I watched some of our version on Sunday night ("Australia’s Got Talent") and there was a guy playing "Imagine" on a set of gum leaves.  It was definitely different but the guy didn’t miss a single note!  It was unreal!  Dannii Minogue looks really good as a judge also I thought.

Dion left at about 6:30pm and Bryn was like, ‘How come he’s going already?  You haven’t even offered him anything" etc and I’m like ‘well actually I offered him water and orange juice and I did buy him a meal for lunch when we went out.".  It didn’t bother me at all when he said it, but whilst I was working tonight, I wondered to myself why he had to bring something up like that?  Oh well, it’s not a big deal.  He said to Dion that he is welcome to come over anytime he wants, day or night.  That’s just Bryn for ya, really nice.  I hope he didn’t scare Dion off.  I know he can be a bit much sometimes.  I walked outside with Dion and he gave me a really big hug.  I love hugs that you can really feel – not just a friendly hug but a ‘It was great to finally meet you hug’ 🙂 He did well finding my place without a refidex from the southside!  I hope he made it back safe. 

I was gunna message him tonight saying it was great to meet him but I haven’t, cos I finished at midnight and he was probably asleep.  I love hanging out with friends after work, but most of the time now I’m forced to go home cos, well, let’s face it, who’s awake, and wants to hang out, after midnight?  Ah well, doesn’t matter that much I spose.  I was gunna watch "Devil Wears Prada" – I might do that after I post this entry.  Yay I got something to do tonight 🙂  Then bedtime for me.  Last night I musta been so out of it, I counted that I had slept for 16 hours straight!  I woke up in the morning a few times but went back to sleep.  Last night I dreamt that I was fucking a chick.  WHAT THE?  What the hell is going on with my dream patterns lately? Gessus.  Funny thing is, I woke up with a hard-on.  I know that’s normal for most guys, but me, rarely!

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font face=”Trebuchet” color=”#00ccff” size=”4″>Christ, I must be desperate to get laid again.  Haha.