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Keep Holding On – Avril Lavigne

You’re not alone
Together we stand
I’ll be by your side
You know I’ll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There’s no place to go
You know I won’t give in
No, I won’t give in

Keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I’m here for you
I’m here for you
There’s nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it’s too late
This could all disappear
Before the door’s closed
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend
I’ll fight and defend, yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I’m here for you
I’m here for you
There’s nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through

Hear me when I say
When I say I believe.
Nothing’s gonna change
Nothing’s gonna change destiny
Whatever’s meant to be
Will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
La da da da, la da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I’m here for you
I’m here for you
There’s nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through

Ahh, ahh
Keep holding on
Ahh, ahh
Keep holding on
There’s nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through

Avril’s back!  I saw a pic of her recently in a magazine and she’s completely changed her look.  Kinda like Ashlee Simpson.  It’s like she’s a completely different person that girl!

I worked 6am-4pm today, having finished at 9:30pm last night, but that was okay.  the day went relatively fast because I had so much to do.  I’m always rushing around like a headless chook on Saturdays (well every day usually, but Saturday’s more than any).  The day went well until I loaded the ice fridge for like the third time today, and as I put the last bag in, the fridge turned itself off!  I actually thought there was a blackout, but all the registers were still working.  So great.  2 hours of trade left, it’s a stinking hot day outside (it still is!), and it breaks down.  Probably a fuse I’d say.  I told the duty manager and he said to check it in half an hour.  As long as the doors stayed closed, it shouldn’t have been too bad i figured.  I left at 4pm and left instructions for the casual boys to take the ice out and put it back in the freezer and put the sign up I’d made.  It’s gunna be hell at work tomorrow, but, guess what? I’m not there!  Who cares!  If it’s anywhere near as hot as it was today, they’ll probably be constantly dragging ice back and forward between the freezer coldroom and the checkouts.  Haha.  I told the service superviser what had happened, so at least he’s prepared for it.  He said he’d prefer if I just made a sign saying we didn’t have any ice left.  I said, ‘Yeah, I would, but ice is kinda the biggest seller on weekends’.  Suffer. 😀

So it’s weekend now!!  And I’m home earlier than I have ever been I think!  Well I’ve been home for a bit and been messing around on myspace.  I got a really nice message from a hot guy in New Zealand about one of my pics, so that was nice of him, and made me feel good about myself too.  It’s always good to be reassured of oneself 🙂  I spoke to a few of my friends (well, more like acquaintances, on msn) about the Kylie concert.  One guy went five times!  How the HELL can someone afford to go to the same concert five times is beyond me.  He went to 2 in Sydney, and 3 in Brisbane.  Christ, concert tickets aren’t cheap!  I usually have to save up for a special occasion to get some.  Having said that, I wanna try to get some tickets to P!nk when they go on sale on Monday.  I was reading the classifieds at work today (cos there was nothing else), and I noticed under the ‘ticket’s’ section, a lot of people had written ‘unable to attend’.  I wonder why so many people would write the same or a similar thing.  I mean, I’d expect one or two, but not like every one.  Is it to save their ass’s from ticket scalping?  Me thinks maybe it’s a disclaimer of some sort – "I am not re-selling these tickets to make a double-profit, whilst still being in attendance at the concert myself" Let’s stick the lie-detector on them – see how many come up red 🙂

I’m suppose to go to the Normanby tonight for my ex-eworkmate’s farewell.  I sure as hell don’t feel like it.  I did work all day.  She came in the store on Thursday night as I was closing up, and I gave her a hug, and she asked if I was coming.  I gave a ‘sure!’ but really didn’t mean it.  There’s gunna be quite a few people going, including the hot guy from work.  There’s been quite a few new people starting, some pretty good-looking guys.  It seems every department BUT mine.  Grrr.  A guy from front end went off this morning when he found out what time I’d finished last night and what time I’d started this morning, but I think he was being a bit of a drama queen to make me feel special.  He’s good though – the only service superviser who actually refuses to call me until he calls all the lazy cunts first.  See, I actually work.  I’m a really good worker.  I guess it comes from being on the farm, although farming really wasn’t my thing.

So I probably won’t go tonight – and I’ll feel bad haha, but it’s not like this isn’t a common thing for me.  I’ll go to something if I really want to go to something, but, I dunno.  Tash has been gone for a week already and it seems weird giving her a farewell now.  She had a farewell

at work, but this is more a friends thing.  plus she seemed kinda rude to me on hursday night, although that could just be me.  It’s as though she’s ‘moved on’ and thinks she’s better or something.  personally i think she’s just transferred to an easier store.  Their loads are no-where near as big as ours and the store is tiny compared to our massive one.  It took me friggin over two hours just to do markdowns today!  I used an entire roll of reduce-to-clears haha.  I was so pissed off this week because our manager is such a lazy-ass, and he had the nerve to say the load wasn’t done one night because ‘matt and i didn’t do anything’, when I never saw him once in his own fucking department.  Every time he called me that day, I ignored him.  Hypocrits can get fucked in my opinion.  I heard he was lazy before he came to our store – now its really showing.  I’m fine if I just keep up my pride.

I went to work wearing eyeliner one day last week.  I just wanted to see how It’d go.  I reckon I looked rather okay in it.  Of course my manager made a smart-ass comment, so i said, "You think this is bad – I’ll bring in the photos of me in drag if you really wanna see em!"  he was like ‘Errr…Ummmm…no thanks!’ giving an unsure-how-to-react-to-that-comment laugh.  Just as I thought – shut ya mouth 😛  It’s funny, I’m actually an employee who’ll backchat my manager.  He asked the casual who was on to fill milk, so I said to him, "how about you actually do something?!".  Seriously, as if I’ve got anything to lose.

One of my best friends rang me at midnight last night, just as i was getting into bed.  He was at schoolies operating the sound stage.  He said it was so noisy and absolutely unreal how many people there were!  I could hear the crowd.  So weird to be hearing all this noise on the other end of a phone when I’m in my nice, quiet, peaceful household, where my housemate was asleep and I was about to sleep.

I can’t believe BarlowGirl are going to be at AGMF next year.  I’m pretty excited about that.  I was listening to a few of their songs before.  Them and Rebecca St james and Stacie Orrico – seems like it’s gunna be pretty big.  Not cheap, and it’s rather boring while the shitty acts are on (and it IS Toowoomba – no offence to my twba readers but seriously everyone knows I can’t stand that place for more than a day at a time lol), but hey, it’s Christian music – not everyone’s good, but there are some real stand-outs.  I bought a CD (well, an EP) by a band from South Africa named Rapture Ruckus.  They were heavy metal sorta punk I think, and put on a good show.

Thursday, November 5, 1998

What a great night!  Went to speech night and got my English Award and certificates of merit for Citizenship Education and Indonesian.  Got a book called "Romance and Legend of Chivalry"  I can’t write much, I have to write my story for my English assignment

I was top of the class in English back in grade 9 or 10, or whenever this was haha.  I loved that class and I had the best teacher.  Unfortunately, that teacher died 🙁  It was such a sad day when the principal called everyone to assembly to announce the news.  Romance and Chivalry?  What the hell?  I guess that book must still be at my parents place somewhere in dad’s cluttered office.

Friday, November 6, 1998

Aleisha’s birthday today!  Stayed home from school because of Cit Ed test and I had English story due.  Mum went to Toowoomba to see Aleisha for her birthday.

Aleisha is my older brother’s wife.  I guess I hadn’t done my assignment hahaha.  I hardly ever took a day off school though, mind you – I was such a goodie-goodie in high school – I can’t believe how different I am now and how much I’ve grown up.  I guess it has been over 8 years, I kinda had to.  Oh looking back on it, even I woulda called myself a loser.

Anyway, I’m gunna… go do something