The Day You Went Away

 The Day You Went Away – Wendy Matthews

Hey, does it ever make you wonder
what’s on my mind
I, I was only ever running to your side
I never cried, I just watched my life go by
It’s just a pack of lies,
’cause you’re leaving me behind
Why, after this long is there nothing
I’ll keep, oh, I can shout
you’ll pretend you’re falling asleep
I live a lie, yeah, believing that you’re mine
It’s just a waste of time
’cause you’re leaving me behind

Hey, there’s not a cloud in the sky
It’s as blue as your goodbye
and I thought it would rain
on a day like today
Hey, there’s not a cloud in sight
it’s as blue as your blue goodbye
and I thought it would rain
the day you went away

Hey, does it ever make you wonder what’s on my mind
I was only ever running back to your side
Hey, there’s not a cloud in the sky
it’s as blue as your goodbye
and I thought it would rain
on a day like today

Hey, there’s not a cloud in sight
it’s as blue as your blue goodbey
and I thought it would rain
the day you went away

He’s on the buses, and the aeroplanes
with some groceries and a sleeping bag….

I heard this song driving home today and thought I’d put it up.  I only really listened to the lyrics of the song today and realised the meaning of the song.  I’m trying to do that more lately.  The song is quite old now, but I’ve always loved it, and I own two of Wendy Matthews albums.  Great Aussie singer.

I got really depressed today.  More so the evening.  I decided to go to church.  I went to John’s church, cos I figured sometimes the message is good and I might get something out of it.  It looked like a pretty big turn-out as usual, although John’s church is one of the most popular ones in Brisbane so I hear.  They held Planetshakers there last year but this year it had to be held at the Convention Centre because it just was getting too popular.

So I left the house at 5:20pm and arrived there at about 6:05pm, five minutes late.  But I did get a few red lights I had to sit at for ages.  John had no idea i was going to be there and I tried ringing him but he didn’t pick up.  I figured he probably turned it off for the church service.  I spent the whole time there looking for him and trying to see where he was sitting, but to no avail.  There were just too many people.  In the end, I sang this one song I knew and just stood up the back of the church, not sitting down, while a few people went up the front and gave their lives to God and stuff.  I find it amazing how I used to be able to understand that, but nowadays I see it happen and I can’t understand how it’s so easy for people to be touched like that.  It’s unreal.

I’m watching Mad TV – I didn’t even know we had it.  Oh well I guess it is nearly 3am.  I only woke up at midday today so I knew I’d be up late tonight.

I ended up leaving the church cos I got mad at the singers up the front going on with their constant ‘praise you jesus, thank you jesus’s at the end of the songs – god they so take it too far and you just wanna throw something at them.  Finish singing the song and keep it to your fucking self.  So I took off.  I tried ringing John a few more times but couldn’t get a response. 

I then decided to go to Sunday Night Live, which is my old church I used to attend when I lived in Sunnybank, and sometimes attended when I lived in Chermside.  I’d mainly go to see my gay mate Mick, who I miss heaps.  He’s a lot of fun but not out to anyone, obviously being a church and all.  His parents actually blame me for him being gay.  Typically stupid Christians.  I so bag out my own kind a lot don’t I.

But I got to the church, and there were hardly any cars in the carpark!  I thought that was so weird, cos every other time I’ve gone there it’s been packed out.  Even a quarter of the carpark wasn’t full.  I parked my car anyway and got out, but I just walked around outside the church, and didn’t really wanna go in cos it’d be obvious I was just arriving with so little people there.  So basically I just got back in my car and messaged a friend to see what he was doing, but he was busy, so I decided to just head home.  On the drive, I decided to go via Sunnybank to see what was on at the movies.  I ended up just getting Hungry Jacks, as it was one of the only restaurants open, and realised I’d have had to have waited over an hour to see a movie.  So I got even more depressed.  As I was sitting there eating my dinner, I kept thinking about how lonely I was without Lukey.  I was in one of those moods where I felt like I had no friends, and depression is like domino’s – once you think of one bad thing, a whole heap more follow.  I ended up taking an unfamiliar exit off the highway just to see where the road took me.  John rang while I was driving so I pulled off to the side, and explained how I had been there.  Turns out he was there, just up the front of the church.  Oh well maybe next time.  Then I accidently hung up on him and couldn’t be bothered ringing him back.  I just wanted to get home.  I got all dressed up nice and church-like for nothing.  I got home kicked off my shoes and caught up on the tennis scores.  I hope tomorrow’s a little more exciting than fucking today was.  At least I got to speak to Luke on msn, and it was an eventful conversation, so yeah.  I told him how I got depressed and how I missed him.  I think he appreciated it, and I think he gets lonely out there. 

Big Day Day is March 12th, I found out, and Marcia Hines and Rogue Traders are gunna be playing! Woohoo!!

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