party, parents, and church

an interesting weekend.  I’ve had to get used to having my weekends on a Sunday and Monday, and I work Tuesday-Saturday.  It’s pretty good I guess, as lnog as I can make my way through the Saturday, the rest is usually pretty cool.

Something quite scary happened to me at work on Saturday though.  It was right after I had just signed on to start.  I was about to fill load, when this elderly man comes up to me and reached out – I thought he was reaching for something on the rollcage behind me – and he put his hand on my shoulder and said, “They told me you were hot stuff”, and with that he removed his hand from my shoulder and continued on with his shopping.  Needless to say it left me feeling quite weird – I mean, what could he have possibly meant?  Scary – anyway I told Dan (a workmate) what had happened and he goes ‘maybe he was gay’.  God I don’t even wanna think about it!  I told Luke also when I got home, and Luke said something like ‘yeah that’s scary, it would’ve been okay if it was someone half attractive, but God an elderly guy?’ – I then confided in saying I brushed my shoulder thoroughly afterwards haha.  Luke’s still at work, I haven’t been able to see much of him this week, just us having different days off together and stuff.  Of the 7 days this past week, he has spent 3 of them in Toowoomba, 2 on Wednesday and Thursday and another on Sunday night.  We spent Saturday together at John’s house after Vicky’s party. 

The party was fun!  Luke and I felt a bit left out there, but it wasn’t too bad because Vicky’s sister is such a ditz.  haha she had us cracking up laughing.  The theme was Gothic.  Luke and I just wore black clothes and Luke wore a little makeup, he looked really good!  He reckons the lady at reception didn’t recognise him and as he was walking back to our unit here, she yelled out ‘what’s your business?!’ and Luke went back and she then recognised him and said his makeup was wrong and to come inside so she could do it for him.  She then proceded to tell Luke all about how when she was at Mardi Gras, a transexual hit on her.  I laughed my head off.  Luke reckons they definitely HAVE to know we are a gay couple now hahaha.  Anyway back to the party.  Dan (my friend and first boyfriend) and his boyfriend Merv, looked SO good – they had gone full-on with the makeup and clothes.  They were both rather tipsy when we got there and were both so flamboyant and energetic.  I ran into Stacey there who I haven’t seen since high school, and she has changed so much.  She reckons that she had no idea that I was gay and she thinks it’s fantastic – she loves gay guys!  She put makeup on me at the party cos I was gunna go out in Toowoomba, cos I haven’t been clubbing there before.  She coloured my lips in black and drew black tear-drops out of my left eye.  It looked SO cool.  I didn’t wanna leave Dan on his own in makeup, cos he was worried about getting bashed up, so now there would be two of us.  I didn’t get to go out clubbing though.  I could tell Lukey really didn’t feel like it, and when the other’s walked to the clubs, we said to them that we were gunna drive there.  Basically, we didn’t – we ditched them and went to John’s place instead, where we were staying the night.  If Luke’s not comfortable, then I’m not, and the idea of clubbing in Toowoomba was still kinda scary to me I guess, even though Ive gone out clubbing in Brisbane on countless occasions.  Weird isn’t it?  I’m more scared of clubbing in Toowoomba than I am in Brisbane.  On the drive to John’s place, I felt so bad.  We had ditched the others, but I was more concerned about Stacey going to all her trouble of doing a great make-up job on me, and me just going to John’s house and washing it all off 🙁  Oh well I hope she’s not too mad at me next time I see her.  It’s not like I’m gunna be seeing her often, but at least I’ve discovered how amazingly she has developed since high school!  She had a great figure and beautiful hair, not the Stacey I remember.  I mean I have SEEN her a few times since high school, but not really gotten to talk to her like we did one-on-one in the bathroom at Vicky’s boyfriends house.  I’m SO happy for Dan hey, from the first gay guy I ever knew (besides Sam) to who he is now.  He’s so himself and doesn’t care.  He has a boyfriend who he’s finally settled down with, and whom is also a really nice guy.  I was there the night they got together, when we snuck Dan into the Beat nightclub at age 17.  I feel happy to see them both so happy.

I miss Aaron though, I will admit that.  Aaron is my best friend.  He turns 18 this year and he can’t wait.  He’s straight, but he’s the most carefree guy I’ve ever met.  I was so scared I’d lose him when I told him I was gay.  But his reaction was a hug.  Yeah he gave me a hug.  It didn’t bother him at all.  I do feel for the guy, he isn’t having much luck with the girls lately, but I know Aaron has high expectations in a girl, and so he should.  I’ve seen him when he’s had a girlfriend and he’s so on another planet, as in he’s so happy and in love nothnig can get him down.  He’s just that kinda guy.  Growing up knowing him I’d always had a huge crush on him, knowing him so well and being fasinated with his looks and personality and focus on God and determination in life despite that crap he’s gone through with an abusive father and being sick quite often.  I really respect Aaron, you’ll find once I start talking about him, It’s hard to stop.  He’s my straight boyfriend haha.  I feel bad cos I was meant to go visit him today, but I realised I really couldn’t, because Luke left his phone and his keys here, and If i leave and lock the house, he wouldn’t be able to get back in!  I so miss him, I haven’t seen him and his mum and sister in ages now. 

Went up to Mt Cootha last night.  John and Kristy came up to go to Sunday Night Live, which is the youth church service that’s on the 1st and 3rd Sunday of every month.  Luke said he’d come, but when I went to pick him up after coming back from my parents place on Sunday out near Millmerran, he was covered in cuts and scars – he’d been cleaning out and spraying the chicken-coop out on his parents farm.  He explained to me that he felt really bad, because not only had he chickened-out on meeting my parents, but he wasn’t ready to go to church either.  See, about 2 years ago, Luke got kicked out of his home church because he had a boyfriend at the time.  You can’t blame him for finding going to church a hard thing to do.  I told him it was perfectly fine, SNL’s on every 2 weeks, and I’m not forcing him to do anything.  I drove so much on the weekend, well it felt like it.  I was proud of myself for finding my way to Luke’s farm and back there from my parents farm without getting lost.  I just took the Cecil Plains-Toowoomba rd and turned onto the Southbrook connection road, which ran onto the gore highway, which I know well.  Luke’s mum was kind enough to donate us some old plates and glasses she doesnt use anymore, so Luke took them out and put them on the floor of the passenger seat.  So I

drove back to Brisbane alone.  That was okay, I just had to drive so carefully.  i was sure somethin was going to break in the box full of china and glass, cos I could hear it scraping every time I went over bumps or turned too quickly.  I was like ‘Shit!’ haha.  So I went straight from Toowoomba to Sunday Night Live so I’d make it on time.  John and Katie had left earlier that day and had warned me of all the radars on the road.  John got done for speeding along Granade Rd.  So he rang me and warned me about it, but when I went past, there were no cops there.

I’m jumping all over the place in this entry.  I should talk about what it was like seeing my parents.  That was pretty good!  It’s a pity I couldn’t stay long though.  But it felt like I was there a while. so that’s good.  We just talked about normal stuff, what my new place is like and stuff.  Mum took me in to see Grandma in the home in Millmerran.  Mum knocked on the door and we heard grandma say ‘come in’ and mum said ‘i’ve got a surprise here for you’ and as the door swung open, grandmas saw me and her face totally lit up.  She was so happy to see me, and she said I ‘made her day’.  That was so nice.  I totally adore my grandma, she’s so lovely.  I’ve seen a lot of sides of her gowing up during school and stuff and hanging out at her place after school until mum finished work and stuff.  I sat on her bed and jsut talked to her for a while, but mum informed her I couldn’t stay long because I had to get going back in time to go get luke and head off to Sunday Night Live.

Sunday Night live was really good.  It was about the last supper and I was kinda nervous about what kristy would think of it, as John and kristy drove up before I did.  When I arrived there, I saw their car across from mine and jumped out the car and yelled ‘JOHNNY!!’ and john yelled back ‘MATTY!!’  Kristy is a Morman so I was a little worried about what she’d think of it, but she really enjoyed the service.  It was great to see Michael again.  Speaking of him, his parents found out he’s gay, and they want nothing of it, and they are blaming me for him being gay.  Michael’s been sticking up for me though saying ‘yes Matt is a friend, yes he’s a Christian, but he has never touched me’ – i mean yeh he’s right, i could never hurt him, michael is like one of my closest buddy’s, and the fact that he confides in me is really an honour to me, but i’m expecting to get yelled at by his parents whenever i run into them next.  Oh well, that’s life I guess.  I’m off to bed to cuddle Lukey, we haven’t got to spend as much time together this week.  Take care everyone, i love you all!

-Matt