not feelin’ well!

I don’t feel too good today.  It’s weird, i woke up at 10:30am, being saturday morning and no work so i actually got to sleep in, so i slept well, but i woke up feeling really tired and like crap.  I forced myself to get out of bed, and I had a shower to wake myself up a bit, the hot water feels so good hey haha, but yeah our shower’s hot water only lasts for a while so it sucks – i guess it’s good in the way that we don’t waste water and have a huge water bill, but its gunna be crap if everyone wants to use the shower at the same time. 

Anyway I was pretty bored today so I got on a bus and saw where it took me.  I got off in the city somewhere and tried to find the gay and lesbian parade they were having, but i was late and must’ve missed it – it didnt really bother me though as i figured it probably would’ve only been small anyways.  I walked so much today.  i walked from the city to the valley, back to spring hill, and then to eagle farm, and i got on the Toombul bus and went to Toombul Shopping Centre for the afternoon.  It’s a pretty cool shopping centre, no woolies though, which is weird, it really needs one.  Ah well – i don’t know what it was with the Newsagents today, i went into 2 of them (1 in spring hill and the other at Toombul) to buy scratchies and they were both extremely over-nice.  It was almost as though the guy at spring hill knew me he was smiling at me that much and the chick at toombul’s smile really lit up the room.  It was just weird considering everyone else I went, ppl rarely smiled or just were nowhere near as enthusiastic as the newsagents were.  Maybe it was ‘Newsagent-smiles Day’ or something.

On the Toombul bus, I got off at Ascot because I noticed “Wooloworths Metro’ as the bus was going past.  I went to check it out because it’s one of the stores I put on my transfer request form.  I can’t believe how small it is – I thoguht Milton was small, but what gets me about it is the cool ‘woolworths metro’ sign out the front.  It just looks way cooler than the ‘woolworths’ or ‘food for less’ signs.  I guess that’s just me.  There werent many people working there, although there werent that many customers either.  I didn’t buy anything, but i was trying to consider whether i really wanted to transfer there if it was offered to me.  I went to the coles up the road and it was pretty.  I noticed these 2 guys walking in front of me and they were dressed so smart-casually, like metro-like although I swear they were a gay couple.  My gaydar’s usually pretty accurate, but its like if i’d never known about the show, I probably wouldn’t have guessed that Miriam was actually a bloke.  but that’s not gay, that’s just transsexual-like.  haha if that makes any sense.

So i caught the ‘300’ bus back to the city, caught a train to Southbank and bussed from Southbank back to Sunnybank.  I just couldn’t decide what I wanted to do.  It’s mainly cos i felt like crap i decided to come home.  Otherwise I would’ve gone and visited Aaron.  Might do that tomorrow.  I spent the whole of today out, yet I didn’t see any of my friends.  I wish I could have.  The bus went past Hendra, and it reminded me of Jack (a guy i used to date who is now a really good mate) and I spoke to Micheal on the phone before his phone cut out.  I’m a bit weirded out by that, but I knew he was driving so he couldn’t exactly call back.  But we were halfway through a convo and it’s just weird you have to wait until the next day to finish it.  I was thinking about him so much today, about how I think being friends would be easier for both of us, but then again we’re friends at the moment, yet it doesn’t feel like it, it feels like it’s more.  Maybe things are just meant to be weird?  It was good to hear his voice though.

Well this time next week i’ll be at the Justin Timberlake concert.  I’m paranoid that Micheal will pull out on me, but if he does i know who i’ll give the spare ticket to.  One of my housemates has been giving me hints she wants to go if Micheal can’t, but there’s no way in hell i’m taking her, i spend way too much money on her already and don’t get any thanks for it!  gets annoying sometimes, a simple thank-you isn’t too much to ask is it?

I dunno what it was with the city-folk today.  I had like 3 guys in a row ask me for spare change.  Of course I gave them all like 2 bucks, i usually do when ppl ask, but then i walk away wondering how many other ppl they’ve asked.  So i like to help people out, so many of my friends bag me out for that saying it’s dangerous, but how would u feel if you really were in their situationm with no money for food.  Yeah exactly, leave me alone :).

Will won’t talk to me for some reason.  he was all happy but lately he’s gone all quiet, he was saying he’s depressed he doesnt have someone special to love, and I’ve told him that one day there will be, of course there will be, he’s such a nice guy there has to be.  I haven’t really met him in person yet, but i saw him from a distance at the beat and ive seen photos.  My friend tells me to stay away from him, but personally after what i found out about my friend, id rather stay away from my friend! lol. eww gross.

Oh great one of my housemates is home.  My room is in a garage, so i can easily hear a loud car pull up outside, it’s annoying if it’s really late at night. 

Gosh i feel like crap today, like my muscles are aching, i have a headache and just feel slightly sick, I dunno why, I dont think i ate anything wrong.  Maybe it’s this computer screen.  Anyways I think i’ll get some sleep, that usually helps 🙂 love you all!

-Matt