bitch, whine, moan…the usual
So….IUI #7 failed. The rug has been temporarily pulled out from under me. I can’t do anymore IUI’s until I have an HSG. Basically dye squirted up my cooch and through my fallopian tubes. Sure I want to know if they are blocked, wouldn’t be a bitch if all this time my right tube was blocked and my left ovary is a lazy bitch. I just don’t know how to squeeze that in to my new schedule at work, with no time off, no time to use, and a 90 day probationary period. I just don’t feel like I have the time to waste to put it off very long.
WTF, I’m so tired of this shit. Nothing like starting your period on mother’s day. This time I have had to do progesterone VAGINAL SUPPOSITORIES twice a day. Yes that sucks! As if infertility doesn’t kill the libido enough.
I ponder whether this will ever happen. Do I give up? Do I move on to something else? I didn’t want to do IVF, but that might be my next step. My life is on hold while I try and try and try.
This week has been really hard, mother’s day is a mother fucker. Last year in May I was going to my midwife to start the process. In June the gent and I sat after the first RE apt and he said….just think, this time next year you will be a mother. Who knew how wrong we could be.
I am/was a mother, which is the hardest part.
The cruelest part.
What is a mother without a child?
Until Next time
later
*hug*
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Many Many hugs! No words can ever describe the pain. Thoughts being sent your way.
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I saw you on a friend’s blog and really liked the note you left (thoughts411forever) her. I hear you. yeah, with getting the period this weekend, mother’s day is another bad day to get through. we’re also dealing with infertility. lost a pregnancy last year and counting the months to find out how old our baby would have been if s/he had been born in October. 🙁 still cant believe I’m now saying the word infertility. sigh. I’m sorry to hear of your pain with this, too. (we see the RE next month). sending good thoughts and angels your way.
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*hugs* I get where you’re coming from with IVF.. I was so against putting myself and hubby IVF this time last year yet we went to see the FS on Wednesday last week and signed all the IVF consent forms. My period came that day so of course we have to wait until next cycle to start the IVF. I’m still not happy at all about doing it but I want a baby more than I don’t want IVF.. Ihope your HSG is all clear when you have that done.
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