happiness_in_a_pill : the chemical nirvana

Was drinking in the weekend. Wo0t.

I took friday off from work and road-tripped it up to Auckland with my brother and our friend and I spent a bit too much money so that kinda sucks but I’ll [hopefully] survive.

So… back to the drinking. Jello Shots… Jagermeifter… everything after that it a blur. I do remember throwing up unfortunately.

So, I’m kind of gutted lately. I got told that I’m not going to be promoted to a "Team Leader", and that got me really disappointed. However my two friends did. Jealousy is a very sickly shade of green on my face. I am happy for them, and contrary to popular belief, I’m not mad with them. I’m just angry with myself. Apparently I musn’t do enough. Even though I am the only one to do jobs around the place, Yes, that’s the jealousy showing.

I am happy for them, very happy. I’m glad that they got it. I just wanted to get it too. I’d like to say I have accomplished something while working there. Not just to be something that I said I did. I’m so angry. Especially at Mark to be honest. I wish he could see through Kelli’s empty promise of a promotion even though he has only been there for like 2 months when there are countless others that have been there much longer than he has. I don’t really blame him, just Kelli and her quite honestly superhuman skill of empty promises. It sucks. No wonder so many people are leaving, or thinking of leaving, or have left.

Had a bad dream on Thursday night. Really shocked me. Never thought something that never happened could affect me so much. I know they are insights to the soul, but this one showed me something obvious but so much more deeper.

That’s my rant. I can’t be bothered talking about anything else.

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