1/4/2004

Ahh crap.  I have school tomorrow.

How the hell did this vacation go so fast?  Unfortunately, I was already dreading the return of school last monday because I know winter break is always too good to be true.  I dunno what it is about this year…I just really don’t like it.  Last year sucked pretty bad also, and I thought maybe this year would be better.  It’s just turning out to be the same.  I guess in some aspects it has been better…I got my license, have a much more active social life…I guess it’s just school that mainly brings me down.  It’s kinda hard to know how it does, but maybe it’s because I’m getting senioritis a year early.  I just feel like 12 years of school is enough (that includes Kindergarten), why must they prolong it yet another year?  Then comes wooo hooo college, perhaps the goal of many people’s academic career.  I guess it is for me too, I just hope because I get to actually pick my classes, It might be the first time in my life I feel as if school has some meaning to me.  Or maybe I’m just crazy. Ha, yeah, probably.

I think another problem is that I just have lost all interest in school in general.  Yeah, don’t ask me why exactly because I really don’t know.  Basically, I just long for those days when I have no work to do whatsoever and can just vegetate on the couch for the rest of the evening.  I know that sounds bad, but seriously, that’s how I feel.  I’ve become so lazy too.  I’ll tell myself I’m gonna study for something, but then, I just don’t.  Haha, how’s that for motivation?

Oh well.  Now I’m actually not dreading school as much as I thought like I have been the whole week.  I guess I’m now finally accepting the fact that I have to go back and there’s no way to get out of it.  Ha, hopefully I won’t go to sleep at 2 am like I have for the entire vacation.  It’s gonna be a bitch getting up tomorrow morning.