1/3/2004

Saturday. Damn.

Last free day of vacation.  Tomorrow doesn’t count because everyone is depressed due to the fact that we have to go to school the next day.  Ugh, I’ve basically done no homework yet, and believe me, that’s definitely the first thing I wanna have to look forward to on my last day of vacation.  Haha. 

Let’s see, not too much has gone on today.  Played tennis today for the first time in a while.  My parents have bee on my case about needing to play a lot more often, but i just haven’t had all that interest in it, which is odd.  Maybe it’s because my school doesn’t care who the hell won goddamn ches monts for the first time in years. Haha, but other than that, maybe I’ve just been more depressed than usual.  I really haven’t been able to enjoy this vacation because I’ve had this weird feeling of obligation to something, but I have no idea what.  Ahhh, I just need some drugs…i mean legal drugs…that’s it…

Well, actually, something interesting happened last night.  I was talking to the guy who i have known for quite a while, and we somehow got on the subject of “hooking up”.  From sayign this, you can assume what this lead to.  Not the actual act of it, just the planning of it, haha.  He claimed as friends we would, but I was just a little weirded out by this.  Just a little.  Actually a lot.  But oh well, haha.  The fact is that it would be just a little weird seeing him constantly after hooking up if we actually did, and even though I told him that, he claimed we were both “mature enough to be friends afterward”.  Hmm, I’m sensing some usage going on.  But, I can’t really blame him for anything due to the fact I kinda initiated the whole thing.  I swear I am so messed up.  I want something one minute, but then when I can actually have it, I have all these second thoughts about it.  I admit, I do like him…kinda…but I dunno, it’s not like it would be for real.  Ha, but that’s ok, it’s the story of my life.  Oh, speaking of guys…hey Jessica, and news on my hottie hot blonde guy? lol

Hmm, well, hopefully I will finish all of my homework tomorrow.  Unfortunately, I will have to make up like, a bazillion tests tomorrow thanks to the elementary tour and me going home sick last tuesday.  AHHH i hate school.  A year and a half left…just have to keep telling myself that.