12/16/03

Yet another day of mental degration…

You’d think after 2 or 3 weeks of having my license, i would actually be allowed to drive, like, other people.  No, my friends, that happens not to be the case in the eyes of the psycho people who happen to have authority over my pathetic existence.  But, hey, it’s all good as long as they don’t know I’ve driven anyone else…as it has been the case lately…

I also love how they incessantly harp at me about how i should be doing something, if it happens to be my homework, which i can do on my own for their information, or something else that has miniscule significance yet they happen to think is a damn world event.  They claim they, “can understand how I am feeling” when I say they, in actuality, do not, and then continue to say exactly what they would not want to hear if they did in fact understand.  I love the irony of their parenting techniques.  From saying all of this, though, it really scares me to think I may actually grow up, have kids, and treat them the same way.  I guess it’s inevitable…which really sucks.

Yes, i know my parents are a great contributing factor to my unhappiness, but really, who’s parents aren’t.  The fact that they have such control over my life and my actions frustrates me to no end.  They don’t trust me in anything I do…and I know that because they told me they don’t.  Uh, wow guys, thanks for those encouraging words that will definitely improve our relationship as a family…haha. 

Oh well, enough about them…I’ve learned to deal with my constant anxiety…let’s see, 5 days left of school before winter break.  That is gonna be amazing, especially because I can finally get out without the assitance of anyone driving me.  I swear, the only way I will be able to keep my sanity intact will be by leaving the house I will be confined to for 2 weeks. 

My mental well being depends on it.