Absolute Zero

 I’m not even sure where to start..
 
 I’m really just tired of crap.
 
 So, I had started talking to a total of three women from a dating site.. Emailing, and then texting.. I met one of them.. She ended up being a manipulative bitch and took me for some money.. Money is a sensitive subject for me as is, as I’ve ‘lent’ so many people money over the years and then have had them disappear from my life. I was aggravated, annoyed, et al.. But, in a way, it was worth it. .Cuz now I see she’s a piece of shit and has since stopped texting me. I have no desire to text her back..
 
 The second one cut me off, and claimed I was ‘playing her.’ Not true by a long shot. I told her straight out pretty quick when I was talking to someone else from the site. But, whatever..
 
 The last I barely had spoken to. Her responses were few and far between, and when I last texted her asking for her schedule, and when I could call her, I never heard back, so I let her go..
 
 And on top of this, my friend who I went through crap with a few months ago and I got into it. I’m fucking tired of not saying shit. And even though I initially didn’t when it happened, I finally did the other day. She didn’t want to hear it, but she was at fault for telling some people shit that wasn’t true.
 
 It feels like the last straw. No matter how many times I try, everything just constantly falls apart..
 
 I think I need a break from the dating scene, and to work on myself for a while.. That’s most likely the direction this diary will go for a while..